This new year...

It's going to be different.
I'm going to try to do this right....

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so okay...

i have one more paper to write and then i am home free but i need to start it since it is due on friday the 21st.... which poems to write about.. i have no clue.... but i will in a few.. oooo i just ryhmed...lmao

i realized what was missing from my life it's not Daniel it's weed my first love... i need to get some and regain my sanity pronto....blah

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Frances de la Tour

i would love to study English and French History at Cambridge or even Oxford but yet i can't help to keep my grades up or even keep myself motivated enough to bring myself to class... i'm doomed to fail in my own self righteousness unfortunately.... if i had a reason a goal which i have so many, to deal with my life and work to achieve my hopes and further my education..... I don't know... professor wan and i know i blame her for everything but she does have justible cause in my discision on how much i do not like queens college. I try to give myself hope and say maybe when i move up in the program i might be better off, well i hope, until then i guess i have to remember why i am doing this.....

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waffles<3!...yum

today is the first time i had waffles after becoming a vegan.. yum vegan waffles.. went to trader joes yesterday and i got some sweet stuff..i even got Tofurkey.. i can't wait to try it.. i think i'll save it for christmas.. if i could stick to my diet then i'll be fine....

so today was day 2 of my jogging and i'm feeling good about this... i haven't smoked a cig in 3 days and i feel if i could stop smoking weed until i find a new job that would be even more OWOSOME (in the words of New York)...lmao.. i could even apply at BEST BUY.. OOOOOOO...lmao

well i've been giving this some thought and i think Lugie and I are waaaay too close and in this result Lugie believes he could talk down or anyway to me... I don't disrespect you and treat you like a child so why must you talk so shitty towards me... dont compare me with the respect level of daddie because i do sacrifice a lot just to make you happy and all you do is BITCH and moan... so i think this Anthony Green show will be the last event i'll be attending with him.. i have to start doing my own thing.....

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pretty pissed..

i stayed up for nothing.....blah

while you were sleeping......

this time i know it's forever and this hurts so much... like why are you leaving me now after all we have been through.... you not picking up your phone and sending me to your voicemail without any answer..... did you find someone else did you wake up and say you had enough... please don't leave..please not now... wait until tomorrow.......

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i'm here to do some trees and smoke some blow....

i pretty much pulled an all nighter with Kristina.. watching Gordon's home made videos and laughing about the stupid things in our lives.. hahaha

yeah so its thanxgiving and i have nothing planned.. i was supposed to go dancing tonight but thats not going to happen since Nissa is heading to PA today.. soooooo what to do...

i might just play my guitar.. i think that's a plan.... ahhhhhh!

I HAVE NO LIFE....blah

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I'm so inlove today...

and i sort of want the world to know... ahhh I LOVE YOU DANIEL<33333!....

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give me a break...

was the title of my bulletin on myspace.. and i thought that was what i needed but maybe i need realization more.... so this past week has been rough emotionally and physically but mostly emotionally....

I'm not happy like i was maybe because i had no worries when i was younger.. and I'm getting older plus it's approaching very soon for me..... My 24Th birthday is on Friday and all i can remember is me mouthing off to my mother how pointless and miserable my life is, to have my whole world turned upside and taken from me.. like i was useless or a gain on someone else expense, which they thought it would be....

Just to let you fuckers know you picked the right person to steal from because i DON'T HAVE ANYTHING.. NO MONEY... NO FANCY CLOTHES, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING but an empty checking account.. so the jokes on you because i hope you are as dump as you are for stealing my wallet and my new cellphone, (that wont help you either because Verizon doesn't use Sim cards so my phone is a waste), to use my check card again so you'll be arrested and I'm DEFIANTLY going to press charges since i meant nothing to you but a free ride.... ASSHOLE/S!.....

In any case last night wasn't a complete waste... Lugie and I made it to the Kevin Devine show which was amazing and a little uplifting..Being back in my hometown of Brooklyn<333!, a few blocks away from our old stomping grounds... Lugie and Monty are insane for doing the SOuji boy SUPERMAN dance on stage before Kevin's set.. hahaha... Seeing Brian Bonz again after so many yeeeeaaarsss..that was pretty sweet.. hahaha.... it was great to be in the presence of old friends....AND I LOVE ALL OF MY NEW FRIENDS<333!... maybe i didn't appreciate you guys enough for being there for me when i felt that i was all alone.....so here is to you guys<3333!.....CHEERS<3!!!!

so let's try this again...i think 24 wont be all that bad since 23 sucked in the closing...hahaha.....

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i figured it out....

why writers write and Poets poetess...
so they could share their lives with us.....
And remember they once were here....
amazing<3!

i wish i were a poet...

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Paris....

i'm really giving this some thought.. i think i really want to study in France....

Chemistry is giving me a run for my money.. it's like when i think i had a grasp on it, it tells me other wise.. maybe i'm seriously not cut out for this.. i would love to go to medical school but i wont be going with a horrible gpa... i thought if i continue to study and work hard on it i'll pass but its an on going thing.. i have to really want it... i dont think i really want it anymore.. i don't know.. i don't really need this class to bring down my GPA....

I think i want to change my major from English and Chemistry to English and French.... if i take three classes in French i can be considered to further my studies in Paris.. which i sort of want to do at this time.. i want to leave for awhile and see how it is... and if i don't like it which i'll doubt i'll come home...

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12:25 was the last time i saw my baby....

now he is lost in a world where he doesn't understand what is going on... i never thought i could get attached to anything well other than my Pedro... i lost my phone yesterday.. it's so sad.... someone has my phone... my baby....my pictures, my memories, my life.....

Verizon is a piece of shit they wont send me a replacement even thou i pay insurance every month for it.... those fuckin bastards.. i don't have 50 dollars i could barely pay my bill.... they don't fuckin care about anyone but how to make fuckin money.. they are all bastards....

Daniel is ahhhh i don't know.. he has never been attached to anything in his life and could never understand what i am feeling right now... this adds on to my feelings of lonliness....

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deja vu...

SO on the bus today i had a glimpse of deja vu but it didn't happen exactly the way it did in my dream in a way.... okay I'll tell you the dream part first and then tell you how it really happened.....

dream:
I'm on the bus and i get a phone call from my friend Joe telling me that there was a tornado watch. And i thought that was pretty sweet of him to call because he really didn't have to then i started to think how come Daniel didn't call me and make sure i was okay. So I'm like sad and i hear Khindra playing with a kid but i couldn't really see her face but i knew it was her and blah blah blah.....

Reality:
I got a phone call from Daniel asking where i was because there is a tornado watch in effect on Nassau county and he felt he needed to tell me.. aww i love this kid.. we talked for awhile he called me "stupid" because i got a 14 on my chemistry exam... aww once again i love this kid...lol so i decided i should just at least get some problems done before i go to boot camp training... i get two more phone calls advising me to get home because now everywhere is becoming flooded.. so i decided not to go to boot camp and just get home.. i finally get into the N4 a little argument takes place and then settled. A little boy begins to cry because he wants to sit instead of stand. So this girl gave up her seat for them.. Now the boy is upset because he wanted to sit by himself so the girl decided to entertain the kid and ask him where his nose, ears, and lips were just like how it sort of happened in my dream...

but yeah i had deja vu and thought i should share it.. I'm mad because i could have went to work out after chemistry tutoring....... my birthday is in two weeks tomorrow.. ahhh!...

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am i ready for this....

i think i just failed my chem exam.. well i know i did.. it was like in another language.. i swear...

i tried to study but my brain hurts so much.. too much work.. too much reading, too much tapping of the fingers against the keyboard, too much thinking and too much analyzing everything that is thrown my way... i can't wait til Thursday... I'm going to take this all out on my boot camp class....the full body work out

well in brighter news Daniel got a job.. yay! now we can save and possibly move in together.. if he still wants to....

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Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length. -Robert Frost

I've been reading a lot of poetry and questioning my meaning for awhile now... why do people love? why do people hurt?... it's crazy that the poets i must admire all hated themselves but they didn't before because in their writings i sense so much beauty, so much truth. To be able to capture someones emotion in just words... when i die will people remember my work or will i remain invisible like i am now......

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i don't get it...

i really don't... all i want from life is to be happy and live my life the way i want to live my life... even if it might be the death of me but atleast i lived my life the way i wanted to.... i need to get away from it all.. just for awhile

i hope you're worth it.....

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these past days have been pretty interesting......

school is school and i need to stay on top of that game...

....went down to the city on Wednesday with Kristina to try and get some supplies for my photography class but i guess i was too high that Kristina wasn't definite that i was going to be there by 4.... she ended up coming a little after 5. Not knowing that K&M closed at 6.. we didn't make it in time to get my supplies.. what a bummer.....

yeah so we ended up hitting up the AA on west 23rd which was a little laid back than the one on 8Th street.. got some vegan pizza.. it's been awhile and they raised the prices...what a bummer.. Daniel called but i didn't pick up..that's very interesting.... met up with Bob.. chilled on the steps met two interesting characters Dwayne and Romifer.. Romifer was actually really cool...he's Chinese, Japanese and Filipino... yeah turns out he lives like blocks away from Kristina.. so that's pretty sweet..... got home really late...

got up headed to the city again this time with Lugie and K&M was closed.. damn Jewish holiday.... walked around for like two seconds went to AA and headed home.... kind of a waste....

Later Stacey, Evan and Justin came over.. we smoked and smoked.. chilled and watched a lot of movies.. Hostel is insane and kickin' it old skool was hilarious.. ended up falling asleep so i didn't finish watching the end so i guess i have to catch it when it comes on cable.....

yay!..went to cvs on central and i got my Kodak tri-x....so now i can take some pics of our venture to Virginia....

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SuperBad

was a pretty funny movie....hahaha

Lugie and i went to city to spend his money, catch a movie and just chill..... i found 20 bucks at UNIQLO....YAY! and then i lost 5 at the fallafal spot..AWW!... but whatever...you have to lose some to gain some...blah

i don't want to go to work today.. i just want to sit on my ass... i think i should try and look for another job.....maybe a school job or something.. so i can have my weekends off but I'm going to miss my discount thou... i don't know maybe after Christmas or something.....

so i had the weirdest dream last night and most of them involved Daniel in it....we were getting out of his car and he had these leather gloves on..don't ask me why.... but we were holding hands and we entered this place and he was just being crazy Daniel..doing things to make me laugh... i chilled downstairs at this nail salon while he went upstairs to smoke or something...so later this place turned into a camera store operation and got shut down..so i called Daniel to see if he left me but he didn't...he told me he was upstairs and he was coming down to get me... i don't know when lugie arrived but he was on his way home and i asked Daniel if he would drive lugie home since we were in rockville center or something in my dream, don't ask me why we were there....and Daniel caught an attitude, so this seemed more like Daniel... lugie said he didn't mind finding his way home but i was like can we at least drop him off at the bus stop.. i felt bad leaving lugie like that but for some strange reason i went with Daniel....and then i woke up

i kind of think this dream symbolized that Daniel is not the right person for me because when he is around i tend to distant myself from the people i love just to be with him...i'm not a good person when he enters my life because all i try to do is keep him when he makes it clear that he doesn't want to stay and then when he leaves i feel like shit again.... i don't need someone like that.....

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Brooklyn....

today was pretty much a long day for me....got to school in time which was great being that i have to be there by 9:25am for class.... Chemistry is not that bad.. i just have to find a way to study for my lecture exams... lab was pretty sweet we were working with liquids and solids trying to find the density of it.... it's been awhile since I've taken chem so i have to start from scratch and some how regress some of the things that i sort of learned in high school...yeaaah right...lol

well today on the way back from getting my check from HT... i met a boy named AJ.. he was checking me out on the bus on the way to Hempstead.. i thought he was pretty cute too... he seems pretty chill so i guess we'll just see where this goes...

this video reminds me of Brooklyn..ooh how i miss you but until that day we meet again this is for you<33333!....



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for a split second...

i missed you......

"...and I, I love you. I love you so much, sometimes I can't even breathe"...- George Washington

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hahaha

he's ignoring me again.....blah

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so i was put here to educate you, my friend...

so school is school.... it's so easy to be sucked in by it all.. i kind of miss Nassau... hahaha i know thats pretty ghey but yeah i sort of do......

i'm really excited for my photography class... i think this is going to be good for me... i need something to keep me sane when papers need to be done and exams need to be studied for.... so i think this might improve my writing and musical style and help with artistic ideas for my little project....

i wish i could just go to the city today and just chill and finish reading my book..... but hopefully tomorrow.. i need a break.. thanx holiday<3!...

i don't want to go to work...i'm way too high for this.....

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i think i would make a sweet surgeon......

School was kind of fun... i don't think i got all my awards yet.. i have to pay 54 dollars but i don't have that shit... so i think i might have to bum it out without a textbook for a week until the rest of the money is posted to my account.... that sucks but whatever..could be worst....

hung out with Daniel last night.. it was very sweet.. i don't know... i know he likes me because we some how end up talking about names that we would name our kids and he always says "we could name our kid that"...whatever that means....

he wants to buy a drum set and keep it here.. i wouldn't mind him so much being here everyday at all... i could use the company... i guess and i like to drink and smoke with him so i guess that's pretty sweet.... Plus i adore the kid like whoa...

why do the people that know me laugh when i say i want to become a surgeon.....ha ha i would be a sweet Doctor...lmao

Chemistry today.... and did i mention i LOVE my english classes.. i almost always do...

it feels great not having to go to work after class.. home sweet home<3!

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Today is the first day of school..

I'm pretty excited.. Finally Queens college.. i hope it's everything and more that i think it's going to be.... Now i'll be with people closer to my age with a nicely little relaxed atmosphere....

I love the Fall.. it's the best season ever.. if i would to get married in the future i'm having a Fall wedding probably somewhere in Maine or Connecticut.. some where where the fall shines it's brightest....

things might indeed look up from him kid<3!......

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i knew i was going to get fucked over

i woke up yesterday and i knew it was the day i was going to get fucked over... and boy was i right.... here it goes...

yesterday was Daniel's birthday so i called him around noon to wish him a happy birthday and to see if we were still on for tonight(which we made plans to chill two days before) and he said yeah..."i'm not going to leave now..it might be too much traffic".haha riight at noon..i didn't want to start anything so i said "whenever you feel like coming down, i'll be here all day"...wrong response to say now that i think about it... so i borrowed ten bucks from lugie to get some vegan mozzarella cheese for this lasanga i made for him and went to the supermarket to get him a non vegan cake....i got all dolled up and waited.. waited some more...now mind you it's 8 pm....so i called him to see if he was still going to come by and he said yeah i'll stop by around 11 or 12 and i said 11 or 12 thats pretty late.. so i guess you could just stop by and get the stuff i got you then.. he responds "stuff".. i said yeah i got you some things for your birthday... so he was like okay i'll call you when i'm on my way down there... next he called me around 9 to ask if i would get him some weed and i said NO!.. i'm not calling Bobby and he got pissed and hung up the phone.. and i was like whatever... so now it's 12:40 in the morning and Martin called to get the directions to my house and guess who finally calls...i didnt click over because at this point Martin is waaay more important then he was.... so i laid there for about 10 mins and i said let me call this kid back to see what he has to say.... so this is how it went down.. he asked who was so important that i couldn't click over and i told him that's none of your business and then he began to get all pissy like ooo you're giving your boyfriend directions to come over there when i'm supposed to be there with you.... i laughed so hard and i said "i don't have a boyfriend" then that got him even more mad when i said that.. and then he said "it's my fucking birthday and your about to hang out wiht some other kid" and i said it's not even your birthday anymore" and then he started to call me a "FUCKING ASSHOLE"... and then hung up the phone... i couldn't believe what just happened and i was still laughing a little bit..so i called him back and i was like "are you kidding me" and told him that it was just fucking martin and he was coming down here to give me his metrocard because we switched hours and i had no way of getting to work on friday.. then he was like why didn't you just say that before and i said because it really wasn't any of your business that's why... and then i said i'm the fucking asshole huh?..when in this case you are the fucking asshole because i took off of work to hang out with you and you fucking played me.... he felt so stupid and was like "i didn't know that, why didn't you tell me".. what a fucking douche and then he goes "ooo what are you doing tomorrow" and i said working....Now Martin was calling so i told him i gotta go they are outside waiting for me and he was like i'll call you tomorrow....

are you kidding me this is who i wanted to be with an inconsiderate piece of shit.... i don't understand why he is so concerned on who i'm fucking when i didn't once ask him where he was the whole fucking day.... we are not in a relationship so why are you getting uptight.... so i'm throwing in the towel because it's been three years and we have been on this chapter way tooo long.....

we are two totally different people with totally different goals in life... i have to focus on school and getting into medical school.. i have no time for this little kid game... so you can get your gift and the little bit of cake that lugie left for you and kick some damn rocks..... because i'm taking myself out of this round....

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Lonesome Abbie

i took a pregnantcy test and it said i wasn't pregnant.. thats great news but if it's not pregnancy, i sure hope its my period.... Casey Affleck reminds me of Anthony Green a little...lugie says otherwise

but on the bright side i'm still a little depress..i smoke way tooo much cigs..this is my 5th pack in probably two or three weeks..it all seems the same to me... my chest hurts i'm in horrible shape.. i'm still getting fat and did i mention i still want to die.. yeah life is going great.....

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this doesn't matter

i gained sooooo much weight i don't understand it... i want a cig but my chest is soo fucked up.... i really don't have money like that to purchase some.. i smoked 3 boxes....ooh god i don't know what to do..should i get a pack or should i not......blah blah

well my cousins from missouri came over and spent a week and it was pretty chill...

i thought i was pregnant again but i'm not thank god but i still want to kill myself so then i guess somethings might never change..... Daniel's birthday is coming up and he's been avoiding me lately well he hasn't called me back yet from last night.. he does this around this time.. i want to get him something but i don't know what... i might buy him some converses since they are 25% plus my discount.. i think i might just do that.... i wish he would call becuase i'm pretty lonely and a little horney...

i need some weed..........

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warped tour....

you know the one I'm not at right now...lol

I'm over it.. i guess.. blah

i guess some habits just don't die... me smoking fags and being around Daniel... some things you just might have to keep with you.... even thou both of them will be the death of me.....

i left my phone in Jess's car.. so sad.. kind of lost without her and i might not see her until tomorrow... not like anyone calls me anyways...

it feels so good to have a new keyboard and that i can type anything i want with all the sssssssss my little heart desires.. hahahaha...

don't really want to go to work today nor tomorrow.. I'm kind of over working.. i can't wait til school starts.. my new outfits and the beautiful boys who will adore me in them....

so that's my reason to stay at HT.. new clothes.. i can't wait till i get the rest of my money since the fucking bank ate it all with all their stupid ass charges... blah...

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okay....

i love you!.. i love you!... i love you!

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if you're into it....

i adore you i really do.. i wonder why i do sometimes... but i love when you come over and we have a lot of fun.. i love the way i can seduce you to lay with me.. haha i love the way you love the way i have the power of seducing you...lol.. i adore you and i miss just being around you.... one day and i hope it's soon that you realize that i'm the perfect girl for you.. we're a perfect match in so many ways.. i believe it's true because we are<333!......but until that day

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once again

he played me like a fool.. i didn't want to hang with him but then i sorta did want too.... i called him twice no answer he called me back, i was upstairs and then called him back three more times through out the day... what a prick i kinda did want to jam today..... why do i put up with you.....

Got lost getting to ikea but found a shorter way to get home but yeah...pretty sweet i think i want an ikea apartment..they all were so cool....

i need to get out of this town... i think when i graduate with my B.S. i'm moving to oregon for awhile.....portugal the man is pretty groovey...i'm feeling this<3!...

so i kinda didn't know that new zealand was by australia... hahaha i'm a moron
hey you learn something new everyday....


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well...

i had sex this morning and not with daniel... i'm such a dirty whore and i know it... hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

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i don't want to wait in vain for your love....

i don't get it.... i'm sorry if someone broke up with me three years ago i think i would have gotten over it by now.. so why are you holding on?.... she's right Daniel you are a "...pathetic piece of shit".... grow up and stop wasting your life on a girl who doesn't even care if you are alive... i don't know what you want me to say when you are basically doing the same thing she did to you but to me and that really blows... now i see how you really feel... i just wish you could have been real instead of leading me on for 3 fucking years.. what a douche... and you still don't want to talk about it... you insult me over the phone and compare our relationship to the non relationship you had with her... you guys were just dating... get over her becaue if you don't you'll lose everything and miss out on a lot of possibilites and opportunities... even after me.... just get on with your life.....


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heatwave

i'm tired and too hot for this... i'm going to go smoke......

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Breathe, just breathe

i'm lonely... and fairy tales make me cry

i wish my love life was as perfect, like a happy ending.. sometimes i wish you were prince charming.. then reality begins to set in and destroys my delicate world of hope....

i believe in love and thats the only thing i've ever believed in because that's the only thing that could be true.... and i know it's real.. i feel in my bones between my muscles and in my heart....wrapped around my fingertips and dancing off my beautiful strands of hair....

"life without love is no life at all"....

i wished i was loved<3333!....

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meet my Phantoms

i don't understand why i feel this way.. well i know why i feel this way but i really want to understand why i allow you to make me feel this way.. i wanna yell i wanna scream but what i really want to do is cry... don't get me wrong i've always been a crier but i've cried more since being with you....

can you please just call me back.....

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Meet me in Montauk

The BBQ was so much fun... there was so many people and my homie Tranette<3 and Alison<3.... Lugie had TJ<3,Val, Kristen and Ms. Katty over...Bubni and Bukke brought Kuma and KiKi... tooo cuteee.. yes it was pretty chill down here in my little pad.. i can't wait to hook it up<3333.. yes there was so much family and friends.. ahh amazing good times and this time i got to stay<333......

ahh Enternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tells you the story of Daniel<3 and I..... tooo a 'T' as they would say... ahh he called me late/early last night and i missed his call this morning when Lugie and i drove Alison back home to Brooklyn... ahh i kind of miss him ....i wonder if he would ever want to forget me...... let's not forget want to forget<3......

my Writer's Celebration<3

just got back from Nigee's Writer's Celebration and it was amazing.. i can't believe how well they read and write... honestly i think they write better than I... true story.. it was a lot of fun meeting parents, talking to the children and meeting the woman that is responsible for all of this Ms. Brennan... they presented each other, it really was their project... i'm just amazed how smart these children are and hope they keep it up because the world is their oyster so take the pearl<333!

Boyz<3

i'm a little bored but maybe today i'll attack that basement bathroom... or finish removing all that shit from the cabinets.. i think i might move in at the end of this week or the beginning of next..

i'm really enjoying life..it sucks that i have no money to chill in the city while i'm in my vacation but hopefully thursday night "girls night out" will be fun.. it's been awhile since i got dolled up to hang out in the city to drink.. hopefully i'll get some numbers.. hahaha such a whore

well spoke to Daniel yesterday. he came down to green acres but couldn't even stop by to say hey.. but whatever his car sucks so he was afraid it was going to stole on him.. hey i'm glad we're talking again.. for some strange reason i just need that kid in my life.. he's my first love.... blah

it sucks that M.I.A. new album is coming out late in the summer i really wanted it to be my summer anthem.. but whatever i can't wait to have that shit blasting in the car.. i hope she tours this fall for the album because i already know that Lugie, Tranette and I are going to be in there shaking our booties especially to "BOYZ".... lol....

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from such great heights.......

i feel so much better now that i got that off my chest................

so much has happened.. i'm unemployeed at the moment and my love life is non existing... i'm just a big loser...... but on the bright side i'm getting the basement...

Lugie, Nigeria ans i started the first day of cleaning up the basement and i think we did a great job.. the only thing that is left to do is the cleaning of the Bathroom (which is a not a pretty site.... ever seen that movie "accepted" yeah.. trust me a lot worse)... and the kitchen.. it's pretty hard to clean when he still has all his shit stil in there... i can't wait to move now... but then again i'm going to miss my cozy room and my huge closet space... shit man i have a lot of clothes.. ahhh.. blah

Architecture in Helsinki is my mew favorite band<33333!.....

high and driving

okay i got offered my job back at hot topic with 8 bucks a hour pay and no less than 20- 23 hours but no more than 30 hours... so i don't know..should i take...i kinda said i would...but i really don't want to work at the mall anymore so blah.......

Daniel you suck... i can't do this anymore.. i don't want to.... i really don't understand you.... you throw me in a frickin' loop.... i wish it was just like old times..they were good times<3!...

i got through one day with a fag.. which is sweet.... thank you mother nature for the little bit of ganja<3! i have..... how i love thy...lol.

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friday is it over yet?!

today i gave myself a make over and i'm poor again.. i feel more confident and everyone is noticing.. yah i'm well on my way to hotness...now all i need to do is stop eating....lol blah

i got hair did and my eyebrows went a little shopping not that much since i had to pay a two hundred dollar phone bill..which sucked all that activation fees and month and a half charge crap.. but whatever i'm clean and good for the month...lol...

i got a sweatshirt from forever 21..i can't believe i could fit in a medium top... pretty sweet but anyway they have some good stuff maybe i need to go back there.. its really cute i wore it today and i just adored it.. but i still miss my hoodie>3.. I'm going to wear it today.....

ah yo tonight when Lugie, Ivy and I were leaving white castle some damn drunk idiot hit my car right in the parking lot.... i was reversing and i saw no car behind me so i stopped to shift the gear into drive and he smashes into my car fucking up his front bumper.... what a fuckin asshole and tried to say i hit him....if you see someone already in the motions of reversing you are supposed to wait until that person is done it's business ASSHOLE! ...how the hell can you miss a FRICKIN car backing up unless you were fucking drunk.... i should have called the cops but the damage on my car wasn't all that bad compared to his semi shattered bumper and hanging license.... ah i really didn't feel like dealing with it plus we were on our way to James new flat... pretty sweet... i got free weed in the end......lol.. so I'm good...

i can't believe old navy sold out on their jeans..... i need jeans... I'm done to my last one and they got destroyed but still manageable...blah i can't wait a month whyyy!... so i was trying on some pants that i saw and i couldn't fit in a 8 nor 10...which is weird because i wear a 10 in pants unless my hips got big.. yes yo i have thighs and a butt...where the hell did this come from....lol... horrible... but at least I'm getting smaller at the top.... hahaha... I'm going to bed i have to get up early to go running and for work...blah


<3peace

taker not a giver

So i got a D+ in anatomy.. how upsetting.. i just want to cry....and i was one question away from a C.... ahhh

i was a little upset and i needed some reassures from someone that i care so deeply for and he played me over the phone... that was so fucked up... it's like my dreams and hard work to succeed in life by doing something good and you don't even care... i know it's just a grade and i'll just have to work harder next time... shit you could have atleast humored me or sympathize with for me for awhile and try your hardest to make me smile like a great and caring boyfriend would.. i deserve so much more but i don't get why i'm sitting here taking this....

i hate my life!....

this is the last time

i feel so surreal right now.. i have no idea if i'm coming or going..blah

just took my anatomy lab exam and i hope i did well enough to keep my 80 average in that part of the class...i didn't study as well as i should of.. passing out last night and getting up not as early as i wanted to and trying to cram two systems in... but whatever it's up to the heavens now.....

so i'm pretty glad that i'll be getting home a little early so i can clean up that nasty room.. i woke up this morning with bite marks on my left arm so i really need to clean.. after that i'll probably take a nap and wait for lugie to get home so we could jog.. work on my english and try to get notes that will help me on my exam.. later wait for trice to get back and have a cool down run with her and work on my anatomy lecture for a bit.. try to go to bed early and get up early to review for anatomy lecture......i can do it....

it's pretty sad but this is my last days at nassau and i finally got a degree... I'VE GOT A DEGREE!!!!.....

<3peace

it's complicated being a wizard

so i'm a sucker because i do miss daniel and i do care about this kid a lot... and it only sucks sometimes... i called him a half an hour ago... because i've been thinking of this kid and i really do miss him. i haven't seen him months literally and we made 2 years a week ago...blah i bet he doesn't even know that...since we've been on off off on off off on on off....lol

well anyway i do miss him and i do want to work it out with him because he is just so perfect for me and i don't want to let him go.. i want to hold him close.. i miss him next to me...his warmth, his smell, his kisses<3...aww i fucking miss the bastard.......

but part of me wants to see other people but the other people i see just turn me off completely... i adore daniel and sometimes i forget to let him know because i'm so hot tempered at times but it's only because i love him?!...

<3peace

this is the last night in my body

why do i even bother calling... i'm pretty much wasting my time.......

....that blew up all over your thighs

ahh summer is in the air... and I'm looking forward to it.. i just have this feeling that it is going to be great.....

i really hope i get that basement i really really want it... it'll be sort of my own place but not really but it would still be sweet... my dad thinks I'm going to be sneaking guys over but come on.. who am I going to sneak in... everyone that they saw a month ago are the ones coming over... I'm not a whore okay.......
i just want my own and this is a step up until i find a real job and save up for my apartment...blah


I've been listening to a lot of Northstar.. how random but yeah i ordered it...blah

work today but at least I'm not closing... close to sweet....lol

Wake and Bake is sweeter than Cake<3!

school is over in two weeks and i can't wait.. i'm really thinking about moving back to Brooklyn.. maybe getting an apartment with Melissa and see how that goes.. i have the whole summer to think aboutit.. but i do know i'll be spending my summers in Brooklyn......blah

Daniel stood me up again.. i still don't get it... whatever...

I need to get that Northstar album....Is this Thing Loaded?....yes but i'm really excited.. i can't wait to my moneen cd comes in so i can dance around to "No better way..."... yay!

Happy

MAY DAY!

sick and tired of your bull

so today i got my paper back from ASl and i got an A.. YAY.. thats great so if i would have read the damn book i probably would have gotten an A+.. nah....

I'm so tired and it's so HOTTT outside. i just want to go home but i can't i have to work at the mall tonight which sucks big time blah...... but whatever i'm not working tomorrow night so it's all good.. going to go home finish typing my english paper and smoke some trees... i can't wait....

That's all i have been doing lately just chilling listen to circa and smoking L's.. i can't wait to the summer when that's all i'm going to do.. i think i should apply for a job at Chase but i don't know if they give drug test.....

my face is breaking out i think it's because of these pills but if so damn these shits work fast.... because this is only the second day and these mofos came out around the afternoon yesterday and hurt like hell.. it might just be my period or something.....whatever.. alright i'm out about to head out to the mall.... Peace out!

<3peace

i saw this coming.....

so today was my first day on the pill and i felt a little nausea but then after i ate that orange i felt so much better.. just please don't gain weight please let's lose it....lol.. whatever....

Just finished my papers and now i'm just chilling listening to Circa

my first link i hope it works.......lol

well i never got to tell you my bizzare dream.... okay it all started with Daniel and I on some boat that was sort of sinking or had a lot of water in it.. i told Daniel to wait outside for me because i needed to get something.... but when i got back his mom said he already left... next thing you know i'm having sex with some black guy... he was so damn Hot.. hahaha..... okay so after that i ended up at a shitty ass job a little like spencers and my son<3 came in... he was the most beautiful thing in the world and i'm not just saying that because he was mine but he was...two years and bad ass hell...reminded me a little like Amirat.... he looked just like Daniel and me... aawww so beautiful just like his father<3.. but in my dream i didn't have full custody of him, he was staying with this family who were trying to help get me full custody... i wanted to take a picture of him with my phone but my phone read "memory full" and when i woke up i tried to take a picture and it read "memory full"... what does this mean?.....

that was a trippy dream but it felt sooooooooo real..... a son<3

the one with the wurlitzer

so i skipped my anatomy class today as if i was passing it..... i don't get it. i wanted this so bad.. i do i did... but it's all slipping away.. i'm not as young as i was before and all i want to do is get a real job and be independent.. i use to be so sure of myself.. i can do it.. it's tough but i'll make it... i feel bad for just throwing my money away like that.. applying to school.. but whatever i'll just be a part time student or something..... i don't know maybe i need to start finding a real job but enjoying life the way i chose to....

waste some time with you

mixed emotions like always.... i don't know what i want to do with myself..i need to grow up because time is catching up but once school is out I'm going to look for a full time with benefits job....ah i think maybe i should have held on to that 70 bucks instead of sending it out for school... or have something really good a long side it....blah

well i got a lot more other things to worry about.. these birth control pills.. I've been on the forum and people said some nice and please able things and other said other wise....blah..

spoke to Daniel finally today..we were playing phone tag...i don't know why i call when he doesn't pick up..but he calls back every time...so maybe it's a sign..who knows i wish i knew....

we should have quit before we started.. but it was beautiful<3!...

<3peace

I'd like to Know.....

it's a beautiful day...

i have to work tonight which sucks because i wasn't scheduled before to so you know.. another employee quit.. they are dropping like flys...lol

i never got to tell you about the circa show which was by far amazing.. and like i always i crowd surf to Anthony and he always lets me shake the top of his head.. i think he remembers me.. hahaha he is love...

ran into an old friend from NCC... pretty cool to see Larry again...

wel it's offical i don't work at HT anymore and it's pretty sweet... spencers is going to be a great look in the summer hopefully i'll work the morning shifts so it won't be that bad.... i need to save money because my savings isn't really growing as fast as i thought it would.... but hoepfully by the end of this month or next i want to have atleast 600 bucks in there.. so i'll be sort of on my way to my goal.. sort of...

well i'm pretty mad at Alberto from stealing shit from my store.. because they know that we are all friends and i trust him and he betrayed me by doing that.. you know if i didn't love him so much i would have reported him but i do.. but i'm not about to lose my job for you, you know sooooooo disrespectful yo soooo....

Anthony stopped by i've missed him i haven't seen him in like forever..AWWWW my ANTONIO<3!.....

i have an lecture exam tomorrow and i think i'm going to fail and that pretty sucks but i'm through with school...

oooooh yeah 420<3! was amazing Trice and i baaked out her truck... good times to bad it's our last 420...blah!

alright i have so much to tell you but my fingers are kind of tired of typing so much......


i have to get that Dntel album<3!.. i can't wait til it comes out

it's the same old lines...

i really need touch up my hair yo.. i think i'll take out this weekend.. i'm not going to go that show i'm going to stay home.. try to do my hair and do some studying for my anatomy exam on tuesday...

i think i did well on my lab exam but i know i made some mistakes that i should have gotten right.. but i hope i got atleast a 80.. i need to pass with atleast a 85 to be able to get a c+ or maybe a B in this class....blah

circa survive tomorrow!.. i think i've met my match<3......

<3peace

yeah yeah same 'ol story yo

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so i made it on circa top 3... pretty sweet yo.. pretty sweet..

ahh this anatomy is blowing my brains yo.. and i have it in the next 28 minutes well lecture that is... i have a lab exam at 10 am tomorrow.. how depressing... so i devote this day ANATOMY LAB day..blah

Happy Birthday Daddie<3!

here at work and professor beckman looks great and i didn't get blamed for her sickness.. hahaha close call... it's been really nasty weather lately.. dark and gloomy.. so sad... i'm starving myself now because i've gained 10 pounds..yikes..

last night i was so high that i didn't know that i fell asleep.. thank god for lugie coming into my room this morning because i would have been ass out yo...

i have my anatomy lab exam so i've been looking over it... but tomorrow i'm going to pick up some weed but not smoke until i'm sure that i am ready for my exam on wednesday morning at 10.... 90 bucks yo... but whatever it'll last me hopefully 6 to 8 weeks since i don't really smoke like that.....

so i'm working with that kid andrew who used to follow Jes aorund when she worked at our HT.. i have to leave her a comment...

so i download the used ringtone for Daniel.. it's not oficial if he doesn't have bert.. even thou i can't stand that kid sometimes i can't stay mad at him for long.. which sucks... it really sucks that i care so much about him....blah

alright i don't think i'll ever change my myspace song.. it just fits me perfectly<333333!

Today is my dad's birthday i got him a pimp cup and an old pimp card to go with it.. he thought it was very funny but wait til he shows everyone else they are going to laugh....... blah

laters im going to ASL now...

<3peace

so what bought you back to this place

Daniel is soooooo weird i swear and a little creepy....lol last night Lugie and i were watching a movie.. and he called mind you it's been 2 months since i've seen him and 8 days since i've talked him and he called to see if i wanted to spend the night with him.. i did the Michael Tucci "huh" thing and said no....lol... and he was like okay i gotta go... you don't like rejection right well join the fuckin club.. you're supposed to be my boyfriend and this how you treat me... so i'm going to do the same.. i tell everyone that i'm single becuase I AM....well anyway i felt a little bad so i called him back twice he didn't pick up.... and now just a few minutes ago he aims me....

Rockersmusick (9:46:22 AM): hello
dahippielove (9:49:45 AM): hello
dahippielove (9:50:25 AM): how are you?
Rockersmusick (9:51:31 AM): what
Rockersmusick (9:51:43 AM): you are awake ?
dahippielove (9:50:48 AM): yes sir
dahippielove (9:51:06 AM): why are you up so early
Rockersmusick (9:52:23 AM): i always am
dahippielove (9:51:43 AM): ahh that sucks.. i called you back whore
Rockersmusick (9:52:54 AM): i notice my phone was dead
Rockersmusick (9:53:21 AM): what are you doing ?
dahippielove (9:52:29 AM): working at spencers
Rockersmusick (9:53:37 AM): ok bye
Rockersmusick (9:53:39 AM): =)
Rockersmusick signed off at 9:52:44 AM.
dahippielove (9:52:45 AM): you should come by
Rockersmusick is not available

i give up............blah.. alright gotta get ready to bounce ahhhh another long day traveling in the rain BLAH!.......

<3peace

i'll just turn around

i'm so bored.. waiting for bobby to call me so i can get some smoke.. but other than getting lost in far rockaway earlier today and so mishap with brand new tickets.. i'll get to the bottom of this..... maybe that creep knew it was me blah whatever....

i need to relax my hair....

i listen to circa survive 735 times so far....lol .. got to gte pumpped the show is in 5 days.. i can't wait


<3peace

hey! hey! hey! I don't like your girlfriend!

so it was the wrong Derek.. the one from Hot Topic... okay so today i will be handing in my resignation Letter to HT.. so sad

Once again the Lab is closed because Professor Beckman is sick... i know when she gets back she is going to blame this on me.... speaking of blame.. you know Lucy blamed me for getting her sick aswell.... just blame the hippie<3...lol..

so now im going to get some coffee and try to catch up on some reading in English...blah

i want to go back to sleep

I rushed all the way here to get to the lab and she isn't even here.. i think i might skip class and head to the city.....

omg DEREK just called... hahahahahahaahahhaha

Meet me in Montauk

He called<33333333!

<3peace

Young Machetes

YAY! I got a PBA card.. thats pretty sweet.....

i'm hungry and enjoying my day off... i just hit my ol' trustie purp-pipelie ... had a little of left over weed... i need to get me some shit....blah

Oh my..... my mom's family is losing it all... my heart goes out to my aunt and cousins because aunt is going to drive herself crazy and them away from her.... it's soooo sad.... i hope she gets better....

you know what sucks that Spencers is asking me to choose them or hot topic.. thanx Jay.. you fuckin prick.. i enjoyed working at both... i was getting used to my one day a week at HT.. that blows but i told Lucy that i was going to stay with HT and her face was like 'omg whyyyy?'... everyone there wants me to stay and i want to stay... i'm stupid because spencers is basically bringing in my income... Lucy isn't all that bad, she was actually cool yesterday so i guess i've made a decision it's nothing personally but i'm going to leave HT.. i need money plus i heard that they are going to be firing all of us and hiring a whole new staff.... since we fail to show up when they call us to come in.. they have some nerve.. we don't make enough to jump when they ask us plus we have lives and other jobs because you wouldn't give us hours in the first place..... whatever.. i guess i should use this as my inspiration to put in my two weeks at HT.... whatever

oooh i met a boy last night well he comes in all the time at spencers.... he's cute i hope he calls so we could maybe chill or something.... just remember you make me do this......

<3peace

for you

ahhh another depressing entry i think i'm on a roll here.....

went down to brooklyn to do my taxes.. it started out horrible.. being rushed and yelled at in the morning doesnt really get anyone chipper for the day.. the Federal Part was easy and well done but the State was a different story.. everyone there were assholes except for this nice woman who actually wanted to do her job..thank you lady.. she came out with her calculator because she saw that i was in distress after having my intellegnece insulted by that stupid bitch behind the couter "don't you go to school" when i simply asked her if i filled out the right boxes.. what a bitch.. i was so angry that my face turned red and my eyes fluttered with tears..... OMG i wanted to climb over that counter and rip her throat where she stood..... it wasn't just her that was being inconsiderate of our needs.... i'm sorry lady that i didn't fucking take a class in IRS... i guess she heard me call her a bitch for insulting my intellegence in front of everyone that when i went back to her to give her my forms she was apologizing and changing her story around "no i was asking if you were in school".... riight bitch save it for someone who cares because you already added to my shitty day...... so once again i fucking owe the fucking stupid ass ungrateful motherfucking government.......

ooh and another thing i got another fucking ticket..... this time for parking i fucking hate my life..

here's another one for you kid

i don't know what to do i'm so miserable...............

i wish i was fortune teller

yo this movie that i'm watching is pretty biazzare. i don't know if its becuase i'm sick but yo.. i want to know who they killed since they killed the wrong person... waiting waititng waiting and i still don't know who they killed... i really think they killed his daughter by mistake.... how horrible.... it was really curse on him..... well anyway

so sales associates are dropping like flies at Hot topic and spencers... omg i fuckin hate bob dylan i really do.. i fucking hate myself.. i really fucking do i really fucking do.. i wish i could you know just disappear........

Stone Free

Finally a time to reflect but not trully because my AIM lights are blinking like a time bomb about to explode in relief.....blah anywayz




So let's begin with Bloc Party....... AMAZING<3!.. at first we were a little turned off by the theatre since it was all runned down and the area it was in.... waiting outside for the show Lugie and I met a guy who was pretty chill he gave us his extra balcony tickets just in case we didn't like our SEATS..... yeah i said it SEATS.. this is the first time i've ever been to any show with seats so i guess its official.....Lugie and i went to a concert...our very first....hahaha so gay.. so the begining of our concert life we kept switching seats since our original seats were in row Z.... yeah but anyway it was so much fun.....For Albert Hammond Jr<3 we stayed in the balcony seats.. ahhh he was so amazing and i really have to invest in his cd but 15 bucks is a lot i know i can find somewhere cheaper....but if i have to i'll just pay the lousy 15 bucks..blah it's worth it.... So when bloc party came on for the first song we stayed up in the balcony but it was pretty gay so we went back downstairs and later ended up all the way in the front DANCING AND SINGING.. OOO MY GOD IT WAS SO MUCH FUN!.... we have to see them again and again.. i'm pretty mad that we missed them before but hey atleast we got to see them now.. so lugie suggests that we see them at a festival and i'm so down with that..... ahh it was so funny Kele came down into the crowd right next to lugie...so lugie put his arm around him and yelled Nigeria in his ear.. Kele laughed...hahahahahaha GOOD TIMES<3!... so i think i'm forming a little crush on Kele<3.. his skin is soooo soft.. hahahahaha im so gay...lol

I wish we could meet Kele and tell him how proud we are of him to be one of us.. you know coming from a culture that only accepts doctors and lawyers and being in a musical band that isn't targeted to Nigerian culture is a huge step plus A LOOOOT of heated agruments... Now we have bloc party and tv on the radio and next it'll be sibling duo Lugie and Abbie<3.... we can do this Lugie and then have a nigerian tour with those two bands oooo and have Sade as our opening act.....i can see it now...lol

okay BLOOD BROTHERS tonight<3!

Boiled Frogs

Pretty sweet tonight is bloc party and i am so EXCITED!.. i don't know how im going to do my hair thou... ahh and i'm going to do my nails and be pretty.. hopefully it will get warmer because this morning traveling here to the communication lab i was freezing my ass off sleeping on the bus.... Ahh sooooo cold

So spring break has started and it is much needed.. i think i'm going to learn an Anthony Green song and probably write a song while i'm vacationing since i have a few days for myself unlike last break.... YAY!....

Yesterday i thought i was going to get fired because i came in a little late but Lucy wasn't working so it was all good.. i wish she wouldn't schedule me for hours i can't work.. duh lady.. well Christine is gone she was a no show no show... hey atleast i picked up yo.... so another 230 check.. YAY!.....

I got my hair did and i'm really feeling it but its so hard to keep up.. you actually have to come your hair ... damn me and my hippie ways....

ooooo did i tell you about the nice old lady who politely called me a nice colored girl.... she meant no harm.....lmfao... old people are just soooooooo....lol

i think i kind of like mister Shane but i really do enjoy checking him at his job i wish we would hangout or something.... it's been a year already and i think i need to start dating again.... so i think i'll ask him to hang with me.. the worst he'll say is no and i highly doubt he'll say no...

shut up you lousy Terror-ist

I have flu symptoms and i want to just walk into a bus or just sleep for awhile....... i have an exam in two hours i think i'm sort of ready for it...i just have to shake this cloggy head feeling and then it's all good from here.....

I hope i got atleast an 85 but i do know i'm going to get some points taken off because i didn't specify right or left on a few models..... AHHHH!...

so i thought i was scheduled to work at HT 6 to closing but it turns out i had to be there at 5..... so i was 23 minutes late.. good thing i left school early just to chill in the mall for awhile... i kind of have my outfit for bloc party.. now i need to get my hair done and purchase the jumper shirt.. its so cute.. i look so cute....lol

i had the weirdest dream last night... Kenny from Moneen was my English Teacher and he handed me back my paper and mention Architecture in Helsinki on it..not realizing that they are one of my favorites...i told him that and then we went on and on about them..in front of everyone in the class...... one of the girls in my class tried to get jealous...even thou Kenny and i have a sort of connection..... but yeah it was pretty weird but you know i enjoy the persence of Kenny...i like him and we all know this.... hahahaha

okay i'm going to finish studying and then start working at the communication lab... pleaase don't rain on my head.. im too sick for this......

<3peace

Telephone Wires

So i guess i'm making use of this huh?... i think i'm a little addicted to this like i'm addicted to my pen hitting the paper of my little journal that i carry everywhere with me.... i just don't want to forget anything thats all....

i'm ready for this i have an exam in 15 minutes and i have to say that i've been busting my butt for this so wish me luck.... luck!?!...

i didn't go to lecture yesterday i stayed at the show and it was okay but it kind of sucked because it was acoustic... Samuel was there and everyone knows how i feel about Samuel and what we could have been and what we are now.... crazy

I think my english professor fancies my writing.. i think i want to be a writer of something like that.. i enjoy writing but whose going to read my book.. no one.. maybe when i'm old and grey i'll publish my journals as "memiors".. hahaha what a loser....

So tonight im'm working at Hot Topic and tomorrow is my night off.. so i'm going to work on my sign language videos so that'll be done by next week to meet the deadline on next week thursday.. i got this no worries, i'm a doctor......lol

i bought a book yesterday from my other job spencers.... how to give a mind blowing blow job... hahaha so after i finish up my work and get ready for SPRING BREAK!... i'll be doing some educational reading.....so get ready Daniel<3...lol

i'll just end off with these two words........Anthony Green<3

M.A.D.

SO i didn't get fired but i got my final write up soo... i wanna quit but i need the money for awhile.. i wont be able to afford a car until my birthday but im going to work my hardest in the summer.. it's just to hard to do it while you're going to school full time.....

Tonight t 8:20 pm is the official time and day of Spring.... YAY!.. i'm so excited....

Saves the day and Say ANything are playing today at 11 am.. i want to cut class and stay for the whole thing but i'm just going to go to class and just leave early.. i think thats the best thing...... i wanna DANCE it's SPRING!

I saw Evan today i'm madly in love sort of.. one day we are going to hook up and it's going to be fun as hell... hahaha..... he's band cd isn't that bad its pretty good actually... i'm really enjoying it.. it's well produced... i'm going to call him tonight.... hey he told me too and i'm going to take full advantage of it.. hahahaha SLUT!....

Working at Spencers 4 to 10... and once again she cut my hours for my display this past weekend.. my dad is like the random person in the world he called me earlier and was asking me about Spencers... i hope he gives me that 40 bucks he promised.....

someday you will die and someone is going to steal your heat

so today i feel so much better.. like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulder and trust me i haven't felt this good since.... i don't even remember.... my livejournal entry was depressing and i think i depressed a lot of other people when they actually read it.....

I felt a little bad because i made Daniel feel horrible because i kind of blamed him for my unhappiness... so i had to make things right and we talked and i explained to him that he is one of the main reasons why i'm happy... i love the kid but somethings i'm just to intense for myself.....

i'm kind of liking this blogger thing because no one other than Lugie and probably a few other people could read this.. it's sort of like a secret in a way....

Modest Mouse new album is frickin amazing if i don't get fired today from Spencers i might just pick it up tomorrow...blah

Miguel is pretty cool i ran into him (literally speaking) on the field and we chilled for awhile since i was running errons for my boss at the communication lab..... yeah we talked and this was actaully the first time we have ever been alone without the whole crew... he's pretty cool but like i said before no one believes i'm 23....lol

alright i'm going back to studying for my anatomy lab exam on wednesday....

In this hole

my first entry in one out of my million and three online bloggers/livejournal/xanga... i've been whoring myself all over the internet.....blah



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