this doesn't matter

i gained sooooo much weight i don't understand it... i want a cig but my chest is soo fucked up.... i really don't have money like that to purchase some.. i smoked 3 boxes....ooh god i don't know what to do..should i get a pack or should i not......blah blah

well my cousins from missouri came over and spent a week and it was pretty chill...

i thought i was pregnant again but i'm not thank god but i still want to kill myself so then i guess somethings might never change..... Daniel's birthday is coming up and he's been avoiding me lately well he hasn't called me back yet from last night.. he does this around this time.. i want to get him something but i don't know what... i might buy him some converses since they are 25% plus my discount.. i think i might just do that.... i wish he would call becuase i'm pretty lonely and a little horney...

i need some weed..........

<3peace