nightmares.....

i had the worst dream last night... that you left me again but it was worse than the last times... i felt such pain and it seemed so real.. but it was my fault i dreamt such a painful dream.. before i went to bed i couldn't stop thinking about you and before i hit that wave i said i need to sop this because if you break my heart again this is going to be the one that kills me... and it did... ahhh please dont break my heart..even thou there is a little birdie in my ear that is chirping "he's going to leave you again and this time its going to be forever"......... FUCK ME!