Police & thieves........

i wish i were a rude girl<3!........

is it okay to have a crush on your president....

He is so frickin cool Michelle is a lucky woman... i hope i can find a guy like this<3!.....


even the pac man is frickin groovey...hahahaha

Taker Not A Giver....

where has my youth gone.. Northstar brings back so many good memories... i don't want to get old anymore i want the life i had before this with no worries and no real plans just great times<3!.......

I blame the parents...

today i told one of my girls to stay with me on my side because she enjoys hanging out with the boys which they are not allowed to mix anymore.. So i told her to stay with me and she responds with "NO! What the ______!", she blanked out the curse but yet we all knew where she was going with it.... so i had to let her know listen I'm not your age and you're going to show me respect but what i really wanted to do was reach over that table and smack her little fucking face.. This little girl is out of control and this isn't the first time we went through this.. So after that when her father arrived to pick her up. I informed him of her behavior and he responds "she's a tom-boy what can i say".... now i see why she acts like that. Father dear if you knowing that she is a tom-boy helps you sleep at night more power to you but when your little girl comes home pregnant because she is a so called tom-boy we know who to blame......

shit I'm a tom-boy but my mother didn't play no games when it came to me being disrespectful... we need to bring the good old fashion beatings back!...... this is what's wrong with our youth today.....

Antique Bull

so i haven't written anything since leaving for my trip to Vermont and i had a blast. I know this is pretty racist to say but i felt like i was in "wassup rockers" because basically Stacy, James and I were the minority surrounded by Spanish speakers and i felt bilingual as well... But i will add those mofos know how to party i was stoned and drunk on the way and back, it felt like one long continuing day... Snowboarding was amazing i sucked the first day and the second day i improved maybe i should smoke more because smoking two blunts before hitting the slopes helped me focus and i accomplished the snow-shed mountain twice which was pretty intense. I really want to do it again that was the most fun i had in awhile plus our room was fucking sick.. We had a three bedroom apartment with a full kitchen with all the appliances in tacked, two bathrooms and a wonderful balcony overlooking the mountains that surround Vermont. A lot of people were hooking up and i decided not to even thou Marino was feeling me hardcore which he told me numerous times.. I think I've made up my mind and i know what i want in a guy and right now I'm working on that with someone. It's hard to to ignore history but it's up to us to correct the future and i think we're both on the same page for the first time in our lives meeting. I don't know but i do like where we are at the moment. Taking things a day at a time for once. Well anyway i really enjoyed myself and everyone there was fucking awesome. There were no fights just James trying to kill himself in our room by jumping off the ledge of our two floor apartment (people know your limit especially when it's a business trip). thank god he only hurt his ankle and not his head..plus Eddie has it on tape which I'm going to need a copy.hahaha... I thought it was pretty groovey of Stacy's boss and his brother to treat his employees so well maybe i should become a tattooist/artist/piercer. well whatever I'm staying connected because half the peeps that was on our getaway are artist and I'm looking for a great one.. Marino offered to touch up my neck tat so let's just see where this goes......

Vermont...

I don't think I've ever been there.. and I've never been snowboarding.. so i guess this will be a first.. i can't wait to get away I'm really going to enjoy this trip i hope i don't break anything.. because that would suck..lol.....

ahhh wish me luck.. see you in three days...lol


<3!

so tired of driving...........

driving is so tiring especially when they live to far.... I've never noticed how far this kid lived it was depressing trying to get home when you're afraid to get out of a warm situation to face the freezing cold outside.. ahh i wish you would have just come to my house....lol.. laziness + coldness makes Abbie one impossible chick.. blaaahh

I'm thinking about applying to the Hot topic in sunrise mall.... i could work for Neesha and still the YMCA.. i need to find another job.. i went apartment hunting and I've found some nice affordable Brooklyn apartments.. i just need to find another job.. ahhhhhh i hate money......

"Let's engage in an ongoing conversation, hopping from topic to topic from the tropic of cancer to recess and bitches, Why I'm always bringing work home with me more baby kittens and sucker punches".....

Horoscopes.....

when i woke up today I felt a little surreal.. like i was here but not really here..... I've been sitting here in front of this computer for awhile now.. not wanting to get myself ready to face the world so i just decided to read my horoscope and it summed up everything and told me i need to get my ass away from this computer and do what i need to do today.. if that isn't motivation then what is.....lol

"We aren't very practical today as the airy Libra Moon harmonizes with spiritual Neptune, lifting our thoughts into the cosmos. Rational Mercury creates tension with electric Uranus, speeding up our mental process and making it hard to grab on to anything specific. Later we have an opportunity to reestablish our center as a Sun-Moon square can provoke a minor crisis that pits the drive of the Capricorn Sun against the Libra Moon's need for balance.Floating along in the meandering stream of your feelings sounds idyllic today, but every time you start to get comfortable, erratic thoughts wake you from your reverie. As the day progresses, you become aware that the real events in your daily life must take precedence over your fantasies. It's not easy to bring yourself back down to earth, yet this is exactly what is currently needed."

Stop floating around yourself and do something productive BITCH......lol

Stay Warm friends<3!..................

so cold....

it's sooo cold and I'm also so bored... i wish i had somewhere to go.. majority of the time, I'm not bored but its just when it gets so cold i don't know where to hide myself..so sad...lol.....i don't know how I'm going to do it Monday when i go snowboarding... I'm going to be freezing my tushie off... maybe that's what I'll do tonight start packing and get things that i might need together...

well today was quite long.. i had a doctors appointment and my doctor believes I'm allergic to one of my kids at work because i keep breaking out.. I've been watching out for the things i consume and I've been frighten to sleep in my bed because Luke made me believe i had bedbugs which don't exist in my bed.. damn you Luke....lol.. so i need to be a little more careful i guess....

ooo and i lost a pound and a half.. haha not much but its a start.. YAY!...lol

Hot Cocoa time..........mmmmmmmmm yelp, yurp, sway ooooh boy SOY MILK.........

i love...

waking up in the morning and feeling happy to be alive..haha I'm so ghey but I've been enjoying my past couple of days and i hope there are many many more to come... Daniel gave me shit about my s/n..hahaha he said it makes his skin crawl.. thanx Daniel thanx but i guess you are right it is time for a new s/n since this is the beginning of a new year.. I'll send it out to all my friends.. i would post it on here but i know someone that i don't want having might read this.. haha yeah KARLos calls me a cheat so i had to reset my last.fm..... these men in my life always trying to change me but like they said, "i am only looking out for your best interest", hahaha they are horrible but i love them.......lol

but like i said before I'm happy to be alive and I'm thankful to be here yet another day.....

live in the moment.....

.. all this talk about the world coming to an end in 2012 made me realize a few things about my life and thanx to Stacy<3 i know that i really need to enjoy myself.. i don't need a boyfriend or the pressure of having a family to show that I've lived my life to the fullest... So for now on I'm not going to stress things, even thou i haven't in awhile, and just live in the now.. hahaha break out of that shell it's 2009 baby...lol

well today Stacy and i headed to the city to check out that radical bookstore I've been talking about and she loved it.. we got some cool reading materials and just chilled before i had to go to work..... even thou it was freezing outside that apple cinnamon spice tea warmed us up and made us even mellower after hitting her bowl.... great times.. i really enjoy Stacy's friendship she is straight forward and says what she feels and i appreciate that i have friends like that.. no bullshit or drama..

well I'm going to read that Franz Kafka book i picked up today and possibly read the rest of After Dark by Haruki Murakami, who has become my one of my favorite authors.......

it's funny how life works....

Vegan with a Vengeance.....

is the cookbook my older brother Dez got me for Christmas and by far this past Christmas has been amazing... I've gotten so much cool vegan friendly things such as an Adagio Tea Kit, 3 shelf bookcase (i own way to many books..lol), not to mention money and other cool well put together gifts ... I'm glad that i have awesome friends and family who support my lifestyle and see that it isn't just a phase.. i really enjoy being a vegan... I'm so excited about this cookbook and i can't wait to profess my love for food and veganism through these fun and kick ass recipes... well done Dez well done<3!.

nightmares.....

i had the worst dream last night... that you left me again but it was worse than the last times... i felt such pain and it seemed so real.. but it was my fault i dreamt such a painful dream.. before i went to bed i couldn't stop thinking about you and before i hit that wave i said i need to sop this because if you break my heart again this is going to be the one that kills me... and it did... ahhh please dont break my heart..even thou there is a little birdie in my ear that is chirping "he's going to leave you again and this time its going to be forever"......... FUCK ME!

the new me.....hahaha

i chopped off all of my hair and I'm sporting some sort of fade..hahaha yeah i like it it's different.. the kids at the school i teach question my style or my sort of expression through self mutilation..hahahaha bad choice of word but everything about me is art to my plugs to my tats to my hair.. i scream art but never acceptance because i already have that from myself.. i feel great things for 2009. I want to graduate this year find a better job and hopefully move out so i can move on with my life... so here's to 2009 and to my hair hahahahahahaha.....

so it's 4 in the morning...

Just got the most random ass phone call awhile ago from this radical punk kid Evan i used to go to nassau with... I had a huge crush on him and its surprising he still has my number...HOT<3...hahahha

This weekend was pretty sweet .... i can't believe i waited to now to try to get my shit together...i go back to teaching tomorrow, well today and i need to get my lesson plans in order to start my new year right...... i have to remember that i'm trying to be a better person...lol that was one of my new year resolutions so i have 360 days to better myself before the next new year arrives....lol

well Andrew and Stacy are passed out on my couches...hahaha step brothers gets funnier every time you watch.. plus Gordon's show...lol.. speaking of Gordon i ran into Damon in the city after having dinner with Andrew and Lookman.. I've missed Damon he is a good kid.. to bad we had that Hipster party to attend or we would have had to hit some bars up in Brooklyn with Damon...haha but it was good seeing him....lol

ahhh i miss my niece and nephew, trice, Ish and Tasha... it felt good having a lot of people in this lonely house like before..so sad ..... well it will be back to its normal lonely self once Lookman leaves for school...sigh


ahhh so these are the festivities i've been getting into and that HIPSTER party that Jess threw was a success... GREAT JOB JESSE<3!..lmfao

this is the new year.....

2008 went out in a blast got to chill with Lookman, my home slice Tranette and her boo boo and her weird friend Jeremy..lol... It was horrible when they left me with Jeremy but oooo so entertaining because of the fact he got off on torturing me and i got off allowing him too....Sorry Tranette i know you might read this..hahaha...

well our new years party was a success and everyone who said they were coming out came out.. got extremely smoked out with Trice, Justin, Stacy and corrupted Lookman just once..lol.. it was all in good fun.. Aunt Doris had a wonderful night which showed itself when she threw up on Lookman's carpet.. hahahahahahaha my dad was the worst he was so drunk he was dancing and screaming out the door "HAPPY NEW YEAR".. hahaha Stacy was a little scared of him but i found it hilarious.. awwww 2009 came in with a bang and a hell of a great time.. i'm so appreciative of my family and my true friends and glad to get rid of wasteful people in my life.. so here's to you 2009!!!..