so school starts in a few days and i think i am ready... i know i need to do very well because my GPA is horrible at the moment.... it's insane that i was given the world and i destroyed it... i have to remember who i am doing this for.. myself.. my unsure feelings had gotten the best of me and it seemed as if i hit rock bottom when i was so sure i was on top... i began to destroy myself with poisons i said i was going avoid which found its way back into my life...
some days i wish i could just escape it all and just forget but something keeps me awake and this time i'm going to figure it out.. enjoy life....
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My report card this marking period wont be as good as last mp. I probably wont even make High Honor Roll and it would be horrible if i didnt make Honor Roll. All I can do is try to do things differently, organize more, and give a lot more effort. Eventually when that time comes, i won't keep word...hopefully i will this time. I feel like i've been given the universe with such to no little time to take piece by piece and i think that was my downfall for this marking period. Having a job wasn't the problem because i would constantly catch myself wasting precious hours away when I didn't have work. I need to be cleansed and list my priorities because without me visually and mentally seeing and being constantly reminded i will get lost and forget and eventually call it quits. I feel like i called it quits so early in the game `and not im trying now and its too late.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could escape, not run from problems but just escape and not be held down my anything. There are so many lucky people who have messed up but are given so much because of their wealthy background. I sometimes wish life was like that for me and it is somewhat...too a limited extent. But knowing I've messed up and brought myself up to a glorous height will have more of a lasting feeling. i feel like im blurbing away but i call it quits right now.
i agree never call it quits never give up the fight.. sometimes it just helps when you step outside the glass and see whats really going on... and basically thats where i want to be outside the glass figuring out where i went wrong and try to fix it.... its so stupid that it took me this long to see how useless people can be and who i value the most in my life... so i guess we will fight together...i reaslly hope you made high honor roll because you've worked so hard in every little thing you've done.....
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