School was kind of fun... i don't think i got all my awards yet.. i have to pay 54 dollars but i don't have that shit... so i think i might have to bum it out without a textbook for a week until the rest of the money is posted to my account.... that sucks but whatever..could be worst....
hung out with Daniel last night.. it was very sweet.. i don't know... i know he likes me because we some how end up talking about names that we would name our kids and he always says "we could name our kid that"...whatever that means....
he wants to buy a drum set and keep it here.. i wouldn't mind him so much being here everyday at all... i could use the company... i guess and i like to drink and smoke with him so i guess that's pretty sweet.... Plus i adore the kid like whoa...
why do the people that know me laugh when i say i want to become a surgeon.....ha ha i would be a sweet Doctor...lmao
Chemistry today.... and did i mention i LOVE my english classes.. i almost always do...
it feels great not having to go to work after class.. home sweet home<3!
<3peace
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Monday, August 27, 2007
Today is the first day of school..
I'm pretty excited.. Finally Queens college.. i hope it's everything and more that i think it's going to be.... Now i'll be with people closer to my age with a nicely little relaxed atmosphere....
I love the Fall.. it's the best season ever.. if i would to get married in the future i'm having a Fall wedding probably somewhere in Maine or Connecticut.. some where where the fall shines it's brightest....
things might indeed look up from him kid<3!......
<3peace
I love the Fall.. it's the best season ever.. if i would to get married in the future i'm having a Fall wedding probably somewhere in Maine or Connecticut.. some where where the fall shines it's brightest....
things might indeed look up from him kid<3!......
<3peace
Friday, August 24, 2007
i knew i was going to get fucked over
i woke up yesterday and i knew it was the day i was going to get fucked over... and boy was i right.... here it goes...
yesterday was Daniel's birthday so i called him around noon to wish him a happy birthday and to see if we were still on for tonight(which we made plans to chill two days before) and he said yeah..."i'm not going to leave now..it might be too much traffic".haha riight at noon..i didn't want to start anything so i said "whenever you feel like coming down, i'll be here all day"...wrong response to say now that i think about it... so i borrowed ten bucks from lugie to get some vegan mozzarella cheese for this lasanga i made for him and went to the supermarket to get him a non vegan cake....i got all dolled up and waited.. waited some more...now mind you it's 8 pm....so i called him to see if he was still going to come by and he said yeah i'll stop by around 11 or 12 and i said 11 or 12 thats pretty late.. so i guess you could just stop by and get the stuff i got you then.. he responds "stuff".. i said yeah i got you some things for your birthday... so he was like okay i'll call you when i'm on my way down there... next he called me around 9 to ask if i would get him some weed and i said NO!.. i'm not calling Bobby and he got pissed and hung up the phone.. and i was like whatever... so now it's 12:40 in the morning and Martin called to get the directions to my house and guess who finally calls...i didnt click over because at this point Martin is waaay more important then he was.... so i laid there for about 10 mins and i said let me call this kid back to see what he has to say.... so this is how it went down.. he asked who was so important that i couldn't click over and i told him that's none of your business and then he began to get all pissy like ooo you're giving your boyfriend directions to come over there when i'm supposed to be there with you.... i laughed so hard and i said "i don't have a boyfriend" then that got him even more mad when i said that.. and then he said "it's my fucking birthday and your about to hang out wiht some other kid" and i said it's not even your birthday anymore" and then he started to call me a "FUCKING ASSHOLE"... and then hung up the phone... i couldn't believe what just happened and i was still laughing a little bit..so i called him back and i was like "are you kidding me" and told him that it was just fucking martin and he was coming down here to give me his metrocard because we switched hours and i had no way of getting to work on friday.. then he was like why didn't you just say that before and i said because it really wasn't any of your business that's why... and then i said i'm the fucking asshole huh?..when in this case you are the fucking asshole because i took off of work to hang out with you and you fucking played me.... he felt so stupid and was like "i didn't know that, why didn't you tell me".. what a fucking douche and then he goes "ooo what are you doing tomorrow" and i said working....Now Martin was calling so i told him i gotta go they are outside waiting for me and he was like i'll call you tomorrow....
are you kidding me this is who i wanted to be with an inconsiderate piece of shit.... i don't understand why he is so concerned on who i'm fucking when i didn't once ask him where he was the whole fucking day.... we are not in a relationship so why are you getting uptight.... so i'm throwing in the towel because it's been three years and we have been on this chapter way tooo long.....
we are two totally different people with totally different goals in life... i have to focus on school and getting into medical school.. i have no time for this little kid game... so you can get your gift and the little bit of cake that lugie left for you and kick some damn rocks..... because i'm taking myself out of this round....
<3peace
yesterday was Daniel's birthday so i called him around noon to wish him a happy birthday and to see if we were still on for tonight(which we made plans to chill two days before) and he said yeah..."i'm not going to leave now..it might be too much traffic".haha riight at noon..i didn't want to start anything so i said "whenever you feel like coming down, i'll be here all day"...wrong response to say now that i think about it... so i borrowed ten bucks from lugie to get some vegan mozzarella cheese for this lasanga i made for him and went to the supermarket to get him a non vegan cake....i got all dolled up and waited.. waited some more...now mind you it's 8 pm....so i called him to see if he was still going to come by and he said yeah i'll stop by around 11 or 12 and i said 11 or 12 thats pretty late.. so i guess you could just stop by and get the stuff i got you then.. he responds "stuff".. i said yeah i got you some things for your birthday... so he was like okay i'll call you when i'm on my way down there... next he called me around 9 to ask if i would get him some weed and i said NO!.. i'm not calling Bobby and he got pissed and hung up the phone.. and i was like whatever... so now it's 12:40 in the morning and Martin called to get the directions to my house and guess who finally calls...i didnt click over because at this point Martin is waaay more important then he was.... so i laid there for about 10 mins and i said let me call this kid back to see what he has to say.... so this is how it went down.. he asked who was so important that i couldn't click over and i told him that's none of your business and then he began to get all pissy like ooo you're giving your boyfriend directions to come over there when i'm supposed to be there with you.... i laughed so hard and i said "i don't have a boyfriend" then that got him even more mad when i said that.. and then he said "it's my fucking birthday and your about to hang out wiht some other kid" and i said it's not even your birthday anymore" and then he started to call me a "FUCKING ASSHOLE"... and then hung up the phone... i couldn't believe what just happened and i was still laughing a little bit..so i called him back and i was like "are you kidding me" and told him that it was just fucking martin and he was coming down here to give me his metrocard because we switched hours and i had no way of getting to work on friday.. then he was like why didn't you just say that before and i said because it really wasn't any of your business that's why... and then i said i'm the fucking asshole huh?..when in this case you are the fucking asshole because i took off of work to hang out with you and you fucking played me.... he felt so stupid and was like "i didn't know that, why didn't you tell me".. what a fucking douche and then he goes "ooo what are you doing tomorrow" and i said working....Now Martin was calling so i told him i gotta go they are outside waiting for me and he was like i'll call you tomorrow....
are you kidding me this is who i wanted to be with an inconsiderate piece of shit.... i don't understand why he is so concerned on who i'm fucking when i didn't once ask him where he was the whole fucking day.... we are not in a relationship so why are you getting uptight.... so i'm throwing in the towel because it's been three years and we have been on this chapter way tooo long.....
we are two totally different people with totally different goals in life... i have to focus on school and getting into medical school.. i have no time for this little kid game... so you can get your gift and the little bit of cake that lugie left for you and kick some damn rocks..... because i'm taking myself out of this round....
<3peace
Monday, August 20, 2007
Lonesome Abbie
i took a pregnantcy test and it said i wasn't pregnant.. thats great news but if it's not pregnancy, i sure hope its my period.... Casey Affleck reminds me of Anthony Green a little...lugie says otherwise
but on the bright side i'm still a little depress..i smoke way tooo much cigs..this is my 5th pack in probably two or three weeks..it all seems the same to me... my chest hurts i'm in horrible shape.. i'm still getting fat and did i mention i still want to die.. yeah life is going great.....
<3peace
but on the bright side i'm still a little depress..i smoke way tooo much cigs..this is my 5th pack in probably two or three weeks..it all seems the same to me... my chest hurts i'm in horrible shape.. i'm still getting fat and did i mention i still want to die.. yeah life is going great.....
<3peace
Friday, August 17, 2007
this doesn't matter
i gained sooooo much weight i don't understand it... i want a cig but my chest is soo fucked up.... i really don't have money like that to purchase some.. i smoked 3 boxes....ooh god i don't know what to do..should i get a pack or should i not......blah blah
well my cousins from missouri came over and spent a week and it was pretty chill...
i thought i was pregnant again but i'm not thank god but i still want to kill myself so then i guess somethings might never change..... Daniel's birthday is coming up and he's been avoiding me lately well he hasn't called me back yet from last night.. he does this around this time.. i want to get him something but i don't know what... i might buy him some converses since they are 25% plus my discount.. i think i might just do that.... i wish he would call becuase i'm pretty lonely and a little horney...
i need some weed..........
<3peace
well my cousins from missouri came over and spent a week and it was pretty chill...
i thought i was pregnant again but i'm not thank god but i still want to kill myself so then i guess somethings might never change..... Daniel's birthday is coming up and he's been avoiding me lately well he hasn't called me back yet from last night.. he does this around this time.. i want to get him something but i don't know what... i might buy him some converses since they are 25% plus my discount.. i think i might just do that.... i wish he would call becuase i'm pretty lonely and a little horney...
i need some weed..........
<3peace
Saturday, August 4, 2007
warped tour....
you know the one I'm not at right now...lol
I'm over it.. i guess.. blah
i guess some habits just don't die... me smoking fags and being around Daniel... some things you just might have to keep with you.... even thou both of them will be the death of me.....
i left my phone in Jess's car.. so sad.. kind of lost without her and i might not see her until tomorrow... not like anyone calls me anyways...
it feels so good to have a new keyboard and that i can type anything i want with all the sssssssss my little heart desires.. hahahaha...
don't really want to go to work today nor tomorrow.. I'm kind of over working.. i can't wait til school starts.. my new outfits and the beautiful boys who will adore me in them....
so that's my reason to stay at HT.. new clothes.. i can't wait till i get the rest of my money since the fucking bank ate it all with all their stupid ass charges... blah...
<3peace
Wednesday, August 1, 2007
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