you and me, so happy together<3!

so excited i finally got my new bike and i absolutely adore it<3!.. i can't wait to ride to work tomorrow if my legs still work from my two hour ride around VS... i need to ride through the state park more often VS is so beautiful...


last night was pretty cool i had the car so i drove to Brooklyn to chill with the feminists and ended up running into my EX Rob..hahaha if we were still together how would my life be.. who knows but I'm glad that he found himself an AWESOME girl.. i really adore her.. i hope it wont be awkward if i start hanging around their apartment...lol well anyway the cool news is that awhile back when i went to check my cousin Osa who was playing bass for the younger lovers i had my eyes on this beautiful boy who i saw last night at the show.. he stumbled towards me and we engaged in a little convo i thought it was pretty awesome that he remembered seeing me so that's a good sign..lol long story short the homewreckers are kick ass and I'm going to check out his band this Wednesday in Brooklyn which is going to be fun since he's playing with my girls.. i think next weekend when i get back from Rhode Island I'm going to fix up my electric and play some tunes.. I'm ready to play....

FML

ahhh my life once again is falling apart.. i wish i had someone to talk to or just hold me for awhile.... i wish i didn't invest so much time or assume so much because whenever you do you just end up looking like a fool in the end.. is it worth sending in all these stupid college applications all over again.. Ive missed so many deadlines and i don't think i can withstand another semester out.. maybe i should just give up on the higher education so i can show my parents that i am a failure and simply a waste of space... i just want to graduate and move on with my life..i want to feel like i amount to something or someone.....

i'll sleep when i'm dead.....

i haven't slept since Saturday morning when Daniel left around 2 am hopefully that 6 hours will keep me up and not kill me by the end of tonight..lmao Dan Deacon was fucking kick ass.. i enjoyed dancing with random strangers until 330 in the morning and have random girls wanna kiss me during songs.. i think Dan Deacon made us his bitches tonight he made us all do OUTRAGES things some things our parents wouldn't approve of... hahaha

really enjoyed Ethiopian food with Lookman and spending one short hour with Tranette<3 and Richard<3!.. thanx to our Mother dearest.but it's all good thou she Lent us her car... so glad we had the car today well this morning because we would have never made it back here so quick.. I'm all cleaned up from peoples sweat and as well as my own.. now just trying to stay awake i have to leave for work in an hour... whatever today is where i make the big bucks plus I'm the BOSS.. so i do what i want.... damn right.. hahahaha

i just want to also send best wishes to my good friend Evan.. stay strong and you'll make it out this mess<3!

i know this is wrong...

But i still love him so much<3!...


tomorrow is PAY DAY!!!! YAY!!!!!!!

it's funny...well sad

how history repeats itself... please lord not again... i'm not ready for this....................

ahhh i wish...

it would stop raining.. I'm so ready for the warm nights in Brooklyn like tonight.. but we've turned into the western world or yet Seattle with all this rain... So depressing.... well anyway this week hasn't been a total waste.worked a lot gotta make that cake in the words of Erwin?<3, my little crush i hope he calls..lol. So my cousin Osa was in town playing in her friends band The Younger Lovers with Brontez from Gravytrain.....i missed their set tonight but i did catch their set last Monday at Don Pedros and it was kick ass.... I'm in love with Brontez too bad we missed his DJ-ing gig at the Nowhere bar earlier today because me and the girls were prettie stoned and enjoying each others company.... this is why i need to work on my music and try to see if i could join someones band....that would be kick ass.. Or start that 2 piece with Daniel... It's like Daniel will be forever in love with me.. i feel so bad<3!.. but whatever it's life.. so yeah i met my new best friend Cristy Road and she is frickin groovey plus a published author.. she gave me one of her books titled, Indestructible, which looked svveet when i was looking through it so i can't wait to read it ... maybe I'll chill at home tomorrow and not go drinking to read this book and possibly get some work done.. nah that's what Sunday is for..lol.. well any way i got a long day today so i need some rest.. Tania is coming down tonight so its going to be a party yo... whoop whoop<3!

i feel accomplished worked all week yeah i'm up to three part time jobs and yet i can't afford rent...hahahah suckie life...lol
................it feels good having wheels<3!.

umm PLUG PLUG...

leave me a comment and tell me what you think....lol

Wait for the summer...

Yeasayer just makes me feel so good about myself.. truthfully..lol I enjoy waking up in the morning sticking my head out the door to see how much the world has changed from yesterday and from two days ago.. Spring is finally here and I'm excited YAY!.. i can't wait for my Bro to come home and the gang to move back for the summer finally i wont be as alone as i have been... I really enjoy my jobs at the Y haha right now I'm employed by three different people and one of them is myself.. Friday was awesome Luke and I was able to go on the Field trip with PS 33 plus the 8 of the children that were chosen to represent the Y to test out PS 85 newly designed by the students playground.. oooooo MY THE BEST DAY EVER.. we played laughed and laughed and played dude Luke and I looked as if we were left back waaaaaay to many times in elementary but it's all good we got paid for it.. what a treat.... Hey at least now i can keep my phone on, eat and go out drinking when i want to plus have a little money left over in my wallet.. Life is looking up blaaah.. alright just wanted to drop a line ENJOY MAY<3!