Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length. -Robert Frost

I've been reading a lot of poetry and questioning my meaning for awhile now... why do people love? why do people hurt?... it's crazy that the poets i must admire all hated themselves but they didn't before because in their writings i sense so much beauty, so much truth. To be able to capture someones emotion in just words... when i die will people remember my work or will i remain invisible like i am now......

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i don't get it...

i really don't... all i want from life is to be happy and live my life the way i want to live my life... even if it might be the death of me but atleast i lived my life the way i wanted to.... i need to get away from it all.. just for awhile

i hope you're worth it.....

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these past days have been pretty interesting......

school is school and i need to stay on top of that game...

....went down to the city on Wednesday with Kristina to try and get some supplies for my photography class but i guess i was too high that Kristina wasn't definite that i was going to be there by 4.... she ended up coming a little after 5. Not knowing that K&M closed at 6.. we didn't make it in time to get my supplies.. what a bummer.....

yeah so we ended up hitting up the AA on west 23rd which was a little laid back than the one on 8Th street.. got some vegan pizza.. it's been awhile and they raised the prices...what a bummer.. Daniel called but i didn't pick up..that's very interesting.... met up with Bob.. chilled on the steps met two interesting characters Dwayne and Romifer.. Romifer was actually really cool...he's Chinese, Japanese and Filipino... yeah turns out he lives like blocks away from Kristina.. so that's pretty sweet..... got home really late...

got up headed to the city again this time with Lugie and K&M was closed.. damn Jewish holiday.... walked around for like two seconds went to AA and headed home.... kind of a waste....

Later Stacey, Evan and Justin came over.. we smoked and smoked.. chilled and watched a lot of movies.. Hostel is insane and kickin' it old skool was hilarious.. ended up falling asleep so i didn't finish watching the end so i guess i have to catch it when it comes on cable.....

yay!..went to cvs on central and i got my Kodak tri-x....so now i can take some pics of our venture to Virginia....

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SuperBad

was a pretty funny movie....hahaha

Lugie and i went to city to spend his money, catch a movie and just chill..... i found 20 bucks at UNIQLO....YAY! and then i lost 5 at the fallafal spot..AWW!... but whatever...you have to lose some to gain some...blah

i don't want to go to work today.. i just want to sit on my ass... i think i should try and look for another job.....maybe a school job or something.. so i can have my weekends off but I'm going to miss my discount thou... i don't know maybe after Christmas or something.....

so i had the weirdest dream last night and most of them involved Daniel in it....we were getting out of his car and he had these leather gloves on..don't ask me why.... but we were holding hands and we entered this place and he was just being crazy Daniel..doing things to make me laugh... i chilled downstairs at this nail salon while he went upstairs to smoke or something...so later this place turned into a camera store operation and got shut down..so i called Daniel to see if he left me but he didn't...he told me he was upstairs and he was coming down to get me... i don't know when lugie arrived but he was on his way home and i asked Daniel if he would drive lugie home since we were in rockville center or something in my dream, don't ask me why we were there....and Daniel caught an attitude, so this seemed more like Daniel... lugie said he didn't mind finding his way home but i was like can we at least drop him off at the bus stop.. i felt bad leaving lugie like that but for some strange reason i went with Daniel....and then i woke up

i kind of think this dream symbolized that Daniel is not the right person for me because when he is around i tend to distant myself from the people i love just to be with him...i'm not a good person when he enters my life because all i try to do is keep him when he makes it clear that he doesn't want to stay and then when he leaves i feel like shit again.... i don't need someone like that.....

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Brooklyn....

today was pretty much a long day for me....got to school in time which was great being that i have to be there by 9:25am for class.... Chemistry is not that bad.. i just have to find a way to study for my lecture exams... lab was pretty sweet we were working with liquids and solids trying to find the density of it.... it's been awhile since I've taken chem so i have to start from scratch and some how regress some of the things that i sort of learned in high school...yeaaah right...lol

well today on the way back from getting my check from HT... i met a boy named AJ.. he was checking me out on the bus on the way to Hempstead.. i thought he was pretty cute too... he seems pretty chill so i guess we'll just see where this goes...

this video reminds me of Brooklyn..ooh how i miss you but until that day we meet again this is for you<33333!....



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for a split second...

i missed you......

"...and I, I love you. I love you so much, sometimes I can't even breathe"...- George Washington

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hahaha

he's ignoring me again.....blah

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so i was put here to educate you, my friend...

so school is school.... it's so easy to be sucked in by it all.. i kind of miss Nassau... hahaha i know thats pretty ghey but yeah i sort of do......

i'm really excited for my photography class... i think this is going to be good for me... i need something to keep me sane when papers need to be done and exams need to be studied for.... so i think this might improve my writing and musical style and help with artistic ideas for my little project....

i wish i could just go to the city today and just chill and finish reading my book..... but hopefully tomorrow.. i need a break.. thanx holiday<3!...

i don't want to go to work...i'm way too high for this.....

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