On the other side....

Man, Johnny why did you have to leave so soon... i never got to say bye or ask how you were. It just breaks my heart to know that i won't be able to have that chance. I don't know how to take this, how to process it... it feels so unreal and i don't want to believe it... sorry... you didn't have to go out like that... i'm so angry! so very angry... you were an awesome person and i will never forget all the fun times we shared.... i can't believe that you've left us.. all the people you've touched in such a short time... rip friend... i'm going to miss knowing you're around... i love you old friend and i miss you already♥!..never forgotten always remembered♥!..r.i.p Johnny aka Puff♥!.....

Leech Mansion

It's really sad to hear that someone dies, especially way to young, and to find out that he was a fellow cyclists.

I wish i could have met you, everyone seems genuinely touched by you in such a short time. I guess we'll make it up when we meet again. Ride safe wherever you are, Bryan<3!

new years eve(l)

so once again i find myself engulfed in self pity it seems to sort of come off natural nowadays. What am i doing? i'm so baffled about everything i wish i could just run away just for a little while you know. Just to get out of my head........ i need to read something uplifting i've lost my mind.....

Storms...

So today will be another cut day for me... I don't know why i feel this way well i sort of know why because i also get this way when the weather changes. my moods are sort of connected, with its highs and lows and lows and even lower. I should at least go to French class today but I'm not motivated at all....

I'm a little sick and i guess drained out this is week two and i already feel like its the middle of the semester, i started out strong and took on so many things and i guess its safe to say that I'm not as young as i used to be.. i need to prioritize... I'm glad i was cut from the school's softball team... it demanded too much of me.....

I'll give myself today and yesterday but Monday i have to be well rested and back on that daily grind.. it's to early in the semester to have an episode........

"even soldiers catch their breath"......

Cast Spells

Man, my summer is ending well.. i think, personally it's going to be a good semester.... friends wise and hopefully school wise as well...lol

Man, Dave Davidson you are a very talented human being... And i don't understand why you talk to me?.. ha i don't know, i'm not nearly as fascinating as you. Ha i guess thanx for seeing... me.... blaah!

"And i'll be carrying flowers, like a soldier holds a gun"....

Back in da Hood.....

Man, i never thought i'd say this... It feels good to be back in Hood Hall... rip 88 Broad and summer '10. you were fun, at times... but I'm so over it. I can honestly say that I'm looking forward to fall semester. I need to look into scholarships, man, college is becoming expansive.. ha and i need to find a job.... asap.

Our room is coming along and this time i decided to organize my clothes.. why do i have so much clothes?!.. it's unnecessary, i tell you, I need to sell.. i could use the money and the space.....

baaked....

In that note, i would like to welcome fall semester '10..This is make it or break it so I'm going to have to kick some ass... i got this, i got this..blaah.

haters...

the world is full of them man, and i am one to talk... but Wilber is always shitting on Apple..he can't appreciate the beauty of technology ha... man i want an iPad. Trice has one and it's hottt, plus it would fit perfectly in my life...

it's funny on how I wish i to go back to when i was younger the time where i wished to be grown... fun times man... when there were no worries and only great times.. good ol' Brooklyn; life in Fort Greene... wouldn't trade it in for the world.... Listening to wu-tang just makes me want to go back ha.. it's been awhile man...

so on Tuesday before noon i need to be out of this apartment.. I'm pretty psyched about moving back in to the dorms i just hate doing the packing and repacking thing. this past year i've literally been trapped in the limbo. so I'm looking forward to be consistently in one place for awhile.. to get my self situated and away from life of uncertainty.. I am ready to find my true self.... blaaaaah

i need to do more lengthy post, i never want to elaborate my thoughts or express my feelings...it would help me stay out of my head you know. Give myself a break and see the whole picture instead of what i believe have importance. So I'm trying out for the softball team... i should start running so i wont embarrass myself at try-outs.... i got this.. well i'm a little afraid since its been a long time since I've played. so I'm extremely rusty. so this is going to be fun ha blaah i just i got to not psyche myself out... The worst thing they can say is we don't need you.. ha devastating. Well it is what it is man... i hope they don't drug test me ha yeah i would definitely fail.. that would suck man......

"raw like cocaine straight from Boliva"....