I keep my poems underneath my pillow.....

Today was a pretty chill day even thou i didn't go to the City.. i think I've been a bitch lately to my mother and i need to nip that in the butt.. she's my best friend<3!...

I need to work on getting my applications out for school... i was checking for colleges that offer ASL as a degree.. well in a Masters but all i see are B.Ss... interesting maybe i should just graduate with a B.S in English and hopefully something will pop up..blah

Luke believes i should be a music journalist since thats the only thing i ever talk about.. haha yeah that would be a sweet gig but it would take the fun out writing about music.. my inspiration only comes to life when there are sweet sounds playing out of my speakers so i guess I'll just stick to blogging them..lmao

boy problems= kick ASS<3! ...........it's overwhelming me<3!...............................

TOKYO POLICE CLUB<3!

owns my heart.. i went to see them last night with my homeboy Luke at Webster and it was a kick ass show.... we danced the night away under the disco ball and their cover of The Clash "Train in Vain(Stand by Me) was fucking amazing... it was just simply fucking amazing!!!.. if you know me you know how much i love the clash especially Joe Strummer so it brought a smile from ear to ear and a tear to my eyes.. great fucking job Tokyo Police Club, Born Ruffians and Harlem Shakes for making my night<3!

2 Piece Fest 2!!!!!!

So the trip to Philly was a success and i had so much fun... Slingshot Dakota are my new best friends and best friends are still my friends plus Peter and Craig own at life<3!.. got to to chill with awesome peeps and i wouldn't mind going out there again but this time to chill with the kids that live in Pi Lam especially Cathy<3!......

So Daniel and I have been fighting for almost a week now and its been so bad that we stopped using our normal voices.. i think yesterday's call push me over the edge and i had to just hang up on the kid... don't come between me and the fest...lol well whatever if we can't make it together as boyfriend and girlfriend i still want to make it as a 2 piece band...that's all i want is to make music with him...blah

Well in other news i want to thank Tania for spending the weekend with me and heading out to Philly with me.. met some cool and interesting people in Philly and on the way home coming from Philly.. haha Tom from Jersey owns my heart at the moment i just have a feeling that I'm going to find out he's only 19.. i think i could go to jail for this...lol

YAAAAWN... I'm so tired so i guess i'll call it a night and if anyone is into 2 piece bands or just great music check out these awesome bands and then thank me later....lol

1)Peter and Craig (Philly)
2)Trophy Wife
3)Slingshot Dakota<3! (BK<3!/PA)
4)Best Friends (Philly)
5)Ingrid (DC)
6)Deer Friends (NJ)
7)Japanther<3!(NYC<3!)
8)1994!<3!
9)Shellshag(NYC<3!)
10)DeerGear (DE)
11)Reading Rainbow<3!
12)The Book Slave
13)Hulk Smash
14)Color Change (CT)
15)Hoop Dreamz (TX)

there were 22 bands that played yesterday but these are the ones i brought back home with me<3!....not bad 15 out of 22 great job...until next year

I promise we'll swing for the fences...

........makes me feel so strangely but in a good way.. Look Mexico has amazed me with their old stuff i heard a couple of their new stuff but i think This is Animal music is by far a well put together CD... his voice has finally settled

well today i had a doctors appt which was back in my heart of Brooklyn.. haha met up with Tania and i think I'm over Red Bamboo... surprising...lol yeah whatever

I'm so glad i didn't pass out like the rest of the guys... Tony, Stacy and Tania are passed out downstairs and I'm wide awake.. it makes no sense for me to go to sleep now when i will be getting up in the next hour... so yeah i got to talk to my KARLos<3!.. i adore that kid.. He sent me a hug and kiss through Tania which i thought was extremely sweet....i can't wait until we get our matching t-shirts hahahaha it's like we are the same person but not....lol

this is going to be a sweet day.. gotta stay awake.... time to take on the big city..rawr wish me luck!!!

i've never felt this pain before and it feels WONDERFUL.....

haha Boy Problems was an amazing band just like Quantice too bad it had to end so quick but it felt wonderful when they were around... awwww why do all the great things come to an end but all the horrible things keeps up it's pace... we will never know...

so today i had an amazing run, i finished my 3 laps strong so i think next week I'm going to add an extra lap just to keep me wanting more.. I'm getting fitter by the day and I'm loving every bit of it so my next goal is to be consistent so i can shed these unwanted pounds and keep if off for good.... you only need three goals in life to say you've had a fun time..
by....
1) staying Healthy
2) consume as much knowledge
3) practice affection

and so far I'm two out for three.......................

Tania is coming over for the weekend and Sunday we'll be in Philly.. i got money in the bank so this is going to be "FUN FUN FUN" in the words of Noah and that whale of his....lol

Thursday Antics....

Today i got up 30 minutes before i had to be in work.. i hate getting up so early especially when i was so tired at 8 pm and then restless at midnight... i need a better sleeping pattern or something.... i can't win with myself. In-house isn't bad and i really enjoyed swimming today unlike Tuesday i got sort of a work out which is what i intended on getting... my body is coming along I've been trying to re build my body, I've been watching what I've been consuming and exercising daily with my 5 mile runs in the mornings... exciting! thanx to my ipod i can run all day...well not all day just most of the day.....lol

Just got home from exchanging the wine i bought earlier because it wasn't vegan friendly and i thought i would take a chance but i should have just went with the yellowtail and called it a night. well whatever i enjoyed my little walk plus i got to scare the living SHIT out of one of my kids from work that i saw in Waldbaums he was so surprised and so i guess he's right i am a little crazy... sorry Jahmani... hahaha I'll see you Monday kiddo..lol

up and out..

Today i'll be working at the Y in-house since school is out this week ahhhh it's holiday camp season.. i have to go swimming today and i'm actually looking forward to sticking my head in the water....lol.. well i'm up early and if i don't leave now i'm going to be late.. out by 12 and a meeting at 1 ahhh i hope this doesn't turn into a looooong daay....

i wish i could get this GPS to work...blaaahh....lol

cookies made with....... love?

I'm so proud of myself i baked a ton of cookies for the kids at work and for Daniel who is my valentine this year.. finally huh... since i was commented on every one's page i thought i would write an entry and show off my baking skills and no worries there are no hash in these brownies.. hey i wouldn't waste it on my horrible kids.. joking about the horrible kids but telling the truth about not wasting my shit...lmao


Alright i'm going to finish designing mrs. Sandy's jewelry box for her daughter.. i've tapped in to my artistic side i've been drawing, creating and next week i will be working on my earring project.. if only i devoted this much effort on my guitar.. Daniel would be proud...

Hot Topic

After looking at these pics on facebook made me feel so nostalgic... i sort of miss my old life my hot topic life.. haaha i thought i would never say that but i worked with pretty rad peeps and it blows that i don't see any of them anymore... i remember when i was cool well sort of...lol

I've just prepared three types of cookies for my bake-athon tomorrow night for my kids at work...i love valentine's day... i hope one day I'll have my own kids to bake for... tick tick tick... is that my biological clock.....blah...lol

What a beautiful day....

i woke up got dress for my morning run, the only thing that makes me want to start a new day, and was amazed how wonderful the world can be... i wish i had an unlimited metro because i would take advantage.. go to the park and re-read Thoreau.. like i told my brother David before sometimes i admire Thoreau for his wisdom but other times i loathe him for his ignorance.... but any who i adore Lugie he texted me and it just made me miss that kid even more it's like he could read my mind.. maybe he could...lol

so I'm sort of careless because i lost Emily's email address and phone number i hope she emails me or i might have to wait for the next community of hope to see her.. She was one of our new participants for this month and she seemed pretty awesome. She has been a vegan for one year and a vegetarian 3 years before.. which is awesome i've been a Vegan going on 4 years(WOW!) and prior to that i was a vegetarian for 3... We discussed recipes and health issues.. i think i just found myself a new friend plus she is my age so I'm excited.. i need to clean up my office maybe its still around....

i adore this man........ Gravity Rides Everything<3!..............

Rosa Parks

so today we started rehearsals for the play Rosa Parks in honor of Black History month.. we already have a full line up and many more need to audition tomorrow.. This is going to be a lot of fun and if the kids do well we might have a showcase for the parents..yay!!!.. i can't wait......lol

Bipolar-ism

You're the only person that makes be feel so low and so high in a split second..
For some strange reason you have the key to unlock my heart....
You walk in, dance, sleep and live there day by day...
And then you leave without closing the door...
So now my insides are flooded and the rush keeps pouring out..
Until i get enough strength to clean it up...
With my mop and buckets...
The mess that you've left behind....
Patch it up real nice and start to get on track...
And like a fool i don't change the locks...
I put up a fence or two but yet i don't change the locks...
As if i want you to come home, well i do...
But like a fool i don't change the locks........

Bon Iver...

wow I've been sitting on this CD for awhile now and i'm just taken away... re:stacks is the most beautiful sad song ever written... i wanted to cry , laugh, tear my heart out and just soak into every line and feel ever note.. amazing....

today was somewhat nerve wrecking well this week has been.. It's like every community of hope i get all crazy because there is always things needed to be done or fixed.. this one was the worst of all nothing was done.. my items weren't ordered the snacks weren't bought and the bus was extremely late but I'm glad that it is all over and it wasn't all that bad, we made it through.. If there was an award for the worst coordinator i think i would win it by a landslide...

I'm so tired and a little emo.. it's like i want to be alone but i also want to be touched.. i wish you were here so i could wrap my arms around you and kiss those beautiful lips of yours.. i hate distance i hate cars i hate my legs because the won't make it to you...........

"......someday my pain will mark you"

After enough time passes.....

my tummie hurts so much............................

Okay....

the flat screen TV in the dining room seemed like a bad idea but i guess it isn't so bad i enjoyed it while i was cooking dinner in the kitchen.. i hate connivence and my father is still a moron...

Another Day....

Today was a lot of fun. i guess the beautiful weather can bring out a lot in a person. Work was a blast and now I'm trying to finish up typing these cool recipes and activities for the next CommunitY of Hope this upcoming Sunday. This month's theme is LOVE thanks St. Valentine. So everything will consist of LOVE, we are going to decorate cards with the little guys and the adults are going to write Thank You cards for the troops over seas and I'm also going to show them many different activities they can do with their little ones since Valentine's Day falls on a Saturday. So they could just spend the day with the ones they love and cook in instead of dining out. I'm glad that we are finally going to have our first C.O.H event for 2009 YAY!.. I've been a horrible coordinator yes i have. But I'm back!...lol

Well i must be in some sort of mood because I'm listening to Armor For Sleep.. hahaha straight up old school... i can't even hate because i remember in like 2004/2005 i found myself at tons of Armor For Sleep shows... what ever happened to those guys....blah

Daniel<3!....

So last night well earlier this morning i snuck my boy in and i don't know its something about us when we are together we could just enjoy each others company and talk all night long.. we talked about life, the ups and downs, death and everything else in between... We played the guitar and just enjoyed each other... i love cuddling with him even thou I'm the one who has to hold him through the night.. hahaha i know I'm the only person he could trust because of the fact he gets so ghey with me and i appreciate it i really do and i know if we aren't together together i had to emphasize the togetherness...lol.. i do know we are going to be the best of friends like Matt & Kim because that's the perks of having a boyfriend and a best friend at the same time.... i think we're to old to search for what we think we might like when we already know what we want and its each other.... he's the only guy that i know and that I've met so far that gets me and I'm pretty sure he knows i get him because i don't sweat his intentions anymore i already know it all comes from his beautiful heart... finally we've found each other and I'm ready to ride this one out<3!.....

and YAY<3!.. we are finally going to start our band.. 4 years in the making so watch out Matt & Kim because Abbie & Dan are here to stay.....lol