meet my Phantoms

i don't understand why i feel this way.. well i know why i feel this way but i really want to understand why i allow you to make me feel this way.. i wanna yell i wanna scream but what i really want to do is cry... don't get me wrong i've always been a crier but i've cried more since being with you....

can you please just call me back.....

<3peace

Meet me in Montauk

The BBQ was so much fun... there was so many people and my homie Tranette<3 and Alison<3.... Lugie had TJ<3,Val, Kristen and Ms. Katty over...Bubni and Bukke brought Kuma and KiKi... tooo cuteee.. yes it was pretty chill down here in my little pad.. i can't wait to hook it up<3333.. yes there was so much family and friends.. ahh amazing good times and this time i got to stay<333......

ahh Enternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tells you the story of Daniel<3 and I..... tooo a 'T' as they would say... ahh he called me late/early last night and i missed his call this morning when Lugie and i drove Alison back home to Brooklyn... ahh i kind of miss him ....i wonder if he would ever want to forget me...... let's not forget want to forget<3......

my Writer's Celebration<3

just got back from Nigee's Writer's Celebration and it was amazing.. i can't believe how well they read and write... honestly i think they write better than I... true story.. it was a lot of fun meeting parents, talking to the children and meeting the woman that is responsible for all of this Ms. Brennan... they presented each other, it really was their project... i'm just amazed how smart these children are and hope they keep it up because the world is their oyster so take the pearl<333!

Boyz<3

i'm a little bored but maybe today i'll attack that basement bathroom... or finish removing all that shit from the cabinets.. i think i might move in at the end of this week or the beginning of next..

i'm really enjoying life..it sucks that i have no money to chill in the city while i'm in my vacation but hopefully thursday night "girls night out" will be fun.. it's been awhile since i got dolled up to hang out in the city to drink.. hopefully i'll get some numbers.. hahaha such a whore

well spoke to Daniel yesterday. he came down to green acres but couldn't even stop by to say hey.. but whatever his car sucks so he was afraid it was going to stole on him.. hey i'm glad we're talking again.. for some strange reason i just need that kid in my life.. he's my first love.... blah

it sucks that M.I.A. new album is coming out late in the summer i really wanted it to be my summer anthem.. but whatever i can't wait to have that shit blasting in the car.. i hope she tours this fall for the album because i already know that Lugie, Tranette and I are going to be in there shaking our booties especially to "BOYZ".... lol....

<3peace

from such great heights.......

i feel so much better now that i got that off my chest................

so much has happened.. i'm unemployeed at the moment and my love life is non existing... i'm just a big loser...... but on the bright side i'm getting the basement...

Lugie, Nigeria ans i started the first day of cleaning up the basement and i think we did a great job.. the only thing that is left to do is the cleaning of the Bathroom (which is a not a pretty site.... ever seen that movie "accepted" yeah.. trust me a lot worse)... and the kitchen.. it's pretty hard to clean when he still has all his shit stil in there... i can't wait to move now... but then again i'm going to miss my cozy room and my huge closet space... shit man i have a lot of clothes.. ahhh.. blah

Architecture in Helsinki is my mew favorite band<33333!.....

high and driving

okay i got offered my job back at hot topic with 8 bucks a hour pay and no less than 20- 23 hours but no more than 30 hours... so i don't know..should i take...i kinda said i would...but i really don't want to work at the mall anymore so blah.......

Daniel you suck... i can't do this anymore.. i don't want to.... i really don't understand you.... you throw me in a frickin' loop.... i wish it was just like old times..they were good times<3!...

i got through one day with a fag.. which is sweet.... thank you mother nature for the little bit of ganja<3! i have..... how i love thy...lol.

<3peace

friday is it over yet?!

today i gave myself a make over and i'm poor again.. i feel more confident and everyone is noticing.. yah i'm well on my way to hotness...now all i need to do is stop eating....lol blah

i got hair did and my eyebrows went a little shopping not that much since i had to pay a two hundred dollar phone bill..which sucked all that activation fees and month and a half charge crap.. but whatever i'm clean and good for the month...lol...

i got a sweatshirt from forever 21..i can't believe i could fit in a medium top... pretty sweet but anyway they have some good stuff maybe i need to go back there.. its really cute i wore it today and i just adored it.. but i still miss my hoodie>3.. I'm going to wear it today.....

ah yo tonight when Lugie, Ivy and I were leaving white castle some damn drunk idiot hit my car right in the parking lot.... i was reversing and i saw no car behind me so i stopped to shift the gear into drive and he smashes into my car fucking up his front bumper.... what a fuckin asshole and tried to say i hit him....if you see someone already in the motions of reversing you are supposed to wait until that person is done it's business ASSHOLE! ...how the hell can you miss a FRICKIN car backing up unless you were fucking drunk.... i should have called the cops but the damage on my car wasn't all that bad compared to his semi shattered bumper and hanging license.... ah i really didn't feel like dealing with it plus we were on our way to James new flat... pretty sweet... i got free weed in the end......lol.. so I'm good...

i can't believe old navy sold out on their jeans..... i need jeans... I'm done to my last one and they got destroyed but still manageable...blah i can't wait a month whyyy!... so i was trying on some pants that i saw and i couldn't fit in a 8 nor 10...which is weird because i wear a 10 in pants unless my hips got big.. yes yo i have thighs and a butt...where the hell did this come from....lol... horrible... but at least I'm getting smaller at the top.... hahaha... I'm going to bed i have to get up early to go running and for work...blah


<3peace