never meant.......

i don't know why I always set myself up for this or feel bad by an outcome.. why can't people grow up.. like seriously grow up.. i will never know and i will never know why i feel in the first place, not in general but why do i feel when you get me upset.. why do i even care i don't even like you like that but for some strange reason i always feel nausea.... man man man man.. tomorrow will be better....

just needed to get that off my chest.....

Back in school

SO I'm officially back in school and i find myself studying now at Plattsburgh State... yes my friends i finally went away to college...hahaha I'm loving it so far, my roommate is awesome, my suite mates are cool and my classes are amazing even thou i have quite a load on my hands... I'm taking 6 courses 5 which are English classes and 1 journalism class... So I'm going to be pretty busy this semester. umm what else is new... i just ordered a macbook pro and patiently awaiting its arrival.. YAY!!!! ummm i live an hour away from Montreal.. ummm I'm broke (well that's nothing new)... umm it just dawned on me that I've been out of school for 2 years... and i guess that is about it so far.. hopefully once i get my hands on my macbook i think you'll start hearing a lot from me plus i don't get the whole tumblr thing as yet well i get it but no one wants to follow any of my blogs hahaha i guess I'm not cool enough and plus my page never sticks to one topic except for my vegan recipe page other than that I'm all over the place but on here, blogspot, is where i can really let my hair down and say what ever i please and not care if the world is reading.. i guess... well i have tons and tons of material to read but I'll keep in touch more... haha

i thought i would call it home

such a fool........ i need to figure a lot out.. getting to old for this.....

Life is Fucked sometimes................

It just BAFFLES me on how some people and their immature mentally are.. get YOUR PRIORITIES right!... My best Friend since i was a little girl has flipped her script and she IS self destruction... i feel so bad for her children because they are the ones suffering under her madness... it's not they're fault for being here if you didn't want them you should have WRAPPED UP... i told her many many times before never burn your bridges especially the bridges that has helped and forgave you so many times... The days when you were roaming the streets selling yourself you're children were dressed, feed and sheltered due to some awesome people that had your back.... it's just a shame that families and friends are torn apart because of immature and spiteful behaviors... we're not here to put you DOWN we were only here TO HOLD YOU UP and WE WISH you knew that... i FUCKING LOVE YOU with all my heart you are still my SISTER but this is bullshit and those children need their MOMMIE/MOTHER not some smoke fiend.... our hearts go out for those poor babies<3!

Somethings in life…

I love my new phone… iPhones are just kick ass man…


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so i think...

i've been hit with the Beatles-mania.... this week i've bought 6 remasters... thanx Target

how about an update...

things are pretty much the same on my side of the world but its just starting to get a little better i say.. i'm officially single and ready to mingle, well i've always been single according to Lookman...lol but i'm trying to get myself back into school hopefully SUNY New Paltz to finish up my Education Degree in the Spring... and pretty much I'm just a girl living in a big city who is trying to get out on the world, financially.. hahaha sounds like something MTV would write... blaaaah....lol