Colin Weaver ......

is amazing he wrote me a song... YAY!!!! hahahahaha so i'm posting it on here for the world to hear and that i never lose it so check it out and tell me what you think....lol

Abbie Road

THANK YOU so much Colin i love it<3!

here's a happy post

well this past weekend was amazing... Friday after work i headed out to Rhode Island to chill with Andrew while his parents were away.. it was pretty sweet.... i thought about hooking up with him when i drank so much wine on Saturday evening but I'm glad i didn't because it would have RUINED our friendship and he's so frickin awesome to be around.... we ate so much vegan food and shopped so much... he took me to romantic chill places which i enjoyed a lot because they were very spiritual.. and frankly i needed it.. i really needed this... the world has so much beauty and i shouldn't dwell so much on the ugly.... so Sunday i was going to head home early to check out that show Barrie was hosting (sorry i missed it lady<3!) but my homie John called and told me his friends were playing with the Appleseed cast in Providence... man i couldn't miss the Appleseed Cast nor John who by the way looked amazing.. wink wink...lol well i couldn't stay long since i have to catch the last bus out of Boston at 11 and we were an hour away in Providence.. overall it was the best weekend by far and i didn't really spend much on the trip and there so I'm definitely doing this again....so next stop Boston to chill with John<3!...

i'm well passed social drinking....

I'm SOOOOOO STUPID....

how can you say you feel nothing after 4 years.. did you just wake up and simply say i feel nothing for you... you're so full of shit with all your "I love You"'s and "I'll be a fool to lose you" .. it's the truth and i meant everything i said last night in brooklyn on that bathroom floor......


..............i need to get my life back

you and me, so happy together<3!

so excited i finally got my new bike and i absolutely adore it<3!.. i can't wait to ride to work tomorrow if my legs still work from my two hour ride around VS... i need to ride through the state park more often VS is so beautiful...


last night was pretty cool i had the car so i drove to Brooklyn to chill with the feminists and ended up running into my EX Rob..hahaha if we were still together how would my life be.. who knows but I'm glad that he found himself an AWESOME girl.. i really adore her.. i hope it wont be awkward if i start hanging around their apartment...lol well anyway the cool news is that awhile back when i went to check my cousin Osa who was playing bass for the younger lovers i had my eyes on this beautiful boy who i saw last night at the show.. he stumbled towards me and we engaged in a little convo i thought it was pretty awesome that he remembered seeing me so that's a good sign..lol long story short the homewreckers are kick ass and I'm going to check out his band this Wednesday in Brooklyn which is going to be fun since he's playing with my girls.. i think next weekend when i get back from Rhode Island I'm going to fix up my electric and play some tunes.. I'm ready to play....

FML

ahhh my life once again is falling apart.. i wish i had someone to talk to or just hold me for awhile.... i wish i didn't invest so much time or assume so much because whenever you do you just end up looking like a fool in the end.. is it worth sending in all these stupid college applications all over again.. Ive missed so many deadlines and i don't think i can withstand another semester out.. maybe i should just give up on the higher education so i can show my parents that i am a failure and simply a waste of space... i just want to graduate and move on with my life..i want to feel like i amount to something or someone.....

i'll sleep when i'm dead.....

i haven't slept since Saturday morning when Daniel left around 2 am hopefully that 6 hours will keep me up and not kill me by the end of tonight..lmao Dan Deacon was fucking kick ass.. i enjoyed dancing with random strangers until 330 in the morning and have random girls wanna kiss me during songs.. i think Dan Deacon made us his bitches tonight he made us all do OUTRAGES things some things our parents wouldn't approve of... hahaha

really enjoyed Ethiopian food with Lookman and spending one short hour with Tranette<3 and Richard<3!.. thanx to our Mother dearest.but it's all good thou she Lent us her car... so glad we had the car today well this morning because we would have never made it back here so quick.. I'm all cleaned up from peoples sweat and as well as my own.. now just trying to stay awake i have to leave for work in an hour... whatever today is where i make the big bucks plus I'm the BOSS.. so i do what i want.... damn right.. hahahaha

i just want to also send best wishes to my good friend Evan.. stay strong and you'll make it out this mess<3!

i know this is wrong...

But i still love him so much<3!...


tomorrow is PAY DAY!!!! YAY!!!!!!!