Taker Not A Giver....

where has my youth gone.. Northstar brings back so many good memories... i don't want to get old anymore i want the life i had before this with no worries and no real plans just great times<3!.......

I blame the parents...

today i told one of my girls to stay with me on my side because she enjoys hanging out with the boys which they are not allowed to mix anymore.. So i told her to stay with me and she responds with "NO! What the ______!", she blanked out the curse but yet we all knew where she was going with it.... so i had to let her know listen I'm not your age and you're going to show me respect but what i really wanted to do was reach over that table and smack her little fucking face.. This little girl is out of control and this isn't the first time we went through this.. So after that when her father arrived to pick her up. I informed him of her behavior and he responds "she's a tom-boy what can i say".... now i see why she acts like that. Father dear if you knowing that she is a tom-boy helps you sleep at night more power to you but when your little girl comes home pregnant because she is a so called tom-boy we know who to blame......

shit I'm a tom-boy but my mother didn't play no games when it came to me being disrespectful... we need to bring the good old fashion beatings back!...... this is what's wrong with our youth today.....

Antique Bull

so i haven't written anything since leaving for my trip to Vermont and i had a blast. I know this is pretty racist to say but i felt like i was in "wassup rockers" because basically Stacy, James and I were the minority surrounded by Spanish speakers and i felt bilingual as well... But i will add those mofos know how to party i was stoned and drunk on the way and back, it felt like one long continuing day... Snowboarding was amazing i sucked the first day and the second day i improved maybe i should smoke more because smoking two blunts before hitting the slopes helped me focus and i accomplished the snow-shed mountain twice which was pretty intense. I really want to do it again that was the most fun i had in awhile plus our room was fucking sick.. We had a three bedroom apartment with a full kitchen with all the appliances in tacked, two bathrooms and a wonderful balcony overlooking the mountains that surround Vermont. A lot of people were hooking up and i decided not to even thou Marino was feeling me hardcore which he told me numerous times.. I think I've made up my mind and i know what i want in a guy and right now I'm working on that with someone. It's hard to to ignore history but it's up to us to correct the future and i think we're both on the same page for the first time in our lives meeting. I don't know but i do like where we are at the moment. Taking things a day at a time for once. Well anyway i really enjoyed myself and everyone there was fucking awesome. There were no fights just James trying to kill himself in our room by jumping off the ledge of our two floor apartment (people know your limit especially when it's a business trip). thank god he only hurt his ankle and not his head..plus Eddie has it on tape which I'm going to need a copy.hahaha... I thought it was pretty groovey of Stacy's boss and his brother to treat his employees so well maybe i should become a tattooist/artist/piercer. well whatever I'm staying connected because half the peeps that was on our getaway are artist and I'm looking for a great one.. Marino offered to touch up my neck tat so let's just see where this goes......

Vermont...

I don't think I've ever been there.. and I've never been snowboarding.. so i guess this will be a first.. i can't wait to get away I'm really going to enjoy this trip i hope i don't break anything.. because that would suck..lol.....

ahhh wish me luck.. see you in three days...lol


<3!

so tired of driving...........

driving is so tiring especially when they live to far.... I've never noticed how far this kid lived it was depressing trying to get home when you're afraid to get out of a warm situation to face the freezing cold outside.. ahh i wish you would have just come to my house....lol.. laziness + coldness makes Abbie one impossible chick.. blaaahh

I'm thinking about applying to the Hot topic in sunrise mall.... i could work for Neesha and still the YMCA.. i need to find another job.. i went apartment hunting and I've found some nice affordable Brooklyn apartments.. i just need to find another job.. ahhhhhh i hate money......

"Let's engage in an ongoing conversation, hopping from topic to topic from the tropic of cancer to recess and bitches, Why I'm always bringing work home with me more baby kittens and sucker punches".....

Horoscopes.....

when i woke up today I felt a little surreal.. like i was here but not really here..... I've been sitting here in front of this computer for awhile now.. not wanting to get myself ready to face the world so i just decided to read my horoscope and it summed up everything and told me i need to get my ass away from this computer and do what i need to do today.. if that isn't motivation then what is.....lol

"We aren't very practical today as the airy Libra Moon harmonizes with spiritual Neptune, lifting our thoughts into the cosmos. Rational Mercury creates tension with electric Uranus, speeding up our mental process and making it hard to grab on to anything specific. Later we have an opportunity to reestablish our center as a Sun-Moon square can provoke a minor crisis that pits the drive of the Capricorn Sun against the Libra Moon's need for balance.Floating along in the meandering stream of your feelings sounds idyllic today, but every time you start to get comfortable, erratic thoughts wake you from your reverie. As the day progresses, you become aware that the real events in your daily life must take precedence over your fantasies. It's not easy to bring yourself back down to earth, yet this is exactly what is currently needed."

Stop floating around yourself and do something productive BITCH......lol

Stay Warm friends<3!..................

so cold....

it's sooo cold and I'm also so bored... i wish i had somewhere to go.. majority of the time, I'm not bored but its just when it gets so cold i don't know where to hide myself..so sad...lol.....i don't know how I'm going to do it Monday when i go snowboarding... I'm going to be freezing my tushie off... maybe that's what I'll do tonight start packing and get things that i might need together...

well today was quite long.. i had a doctors appointment and my doctor believes I'm allergic to one of my kids at work because i keep breaking out.. I've been watching out for the things i consume and I've been frighten to sleep in my bed because Luke made me believe i had bedbugs which don't exist in my bed.. damn you Luke....lol.. so i need to be a little more careful i guess....

ooo and i lost a pound and a half.. haha not much but its a start.. YAY!...lol

Hot Cocoa time..........mmmmmmmmm yelp, yurp, sway ooooh boy SOY MILK.........