i love...

waking up in the morning and feeling happy to be alive..haha I'm so ghey but I've been enjoying my past couple of days and i hope there are many many more to come... Daniel gave me shit about my s/n..hahaha he said it makes his skin crawl.. thanx Daniel thanx but i guess you are right it is time for a new s/n since this is the beginning of a new year.. I'll send it out to all my friends.. i would post it on here but i know someone that i don't want having might read this.. haha yeah KARLos calls me a cheat so i had to reset my last.fm..... these men in my life always trying to change me but like they said, "i am only looking out for your best interest", hahaha they are horrible but i love them.......lol

but like i said before I'm happy to be alive and I'm thankful to be here yet another day.....

live in the moment.....

.. all this talk about the world coming to an end in 2012 made me realize a few things about my life and thanx to Stacy<3 i know that i really need to enjoy myself.. i don't need a boyfriend or the pressure of having a family to show that I've lived my life to the fullest... So for now on I'm not going to stress things, even thou i haven't in awhile, and just live in the now.. hahaha break out of that shell it's 2009 baby...lol

well today Stacy and i headed to the city to check out that radical bookstore I've been talking about and she loved it.. we got some cool reading materials and just chilled before i had to go to work..... even thou it was freezing outside that apple cinnamon spice tea warmed us up and made us even mellower after hitting her bowl.... great times.. i really enjoy Stacy's friendship she is straight forward and says what she feels and i appreciate that i have friends like that.. no bullshit or drama..

well I'm going to read that Franz Kafka book i picked up today and possibly read the rest of After Dark by Haruki Murakami, who has become my one of my favorite authors.......

it's funny how life works....

Vegan with a Vengeance.....

is the cookbook my older brother Dez got me for Christmas and by far this past Christmas has been amazing... I've gotten so much cool vegan friendly things such as an Adagio Tea Kit, 3 shelf bookcase (i own way to many books..lol), not to mention money and other cool well put together gifts ... I'm glad that i have awesome friends and family who support my lifestyle and see that it isn't just a phase.. i really enjoy being a vegan... I'm so excited about this cookbook and i can't wait to profess my love for food and veganism through these fun and kick ass recipes... well done Dez well done<3!.

nightmares.....

i had the worst dream last night... that you left me again but it was worse than the last times... i felt such pain and it seemed so real.. but it was my fault i dreamt such a painful dream.. before i went to bed i couldn't stop thinking about you and before i hit that wave i said i need to sop this because if you break my heart again this is going to be the one that kills me... and it did... ahhh please dont break my heart..even thou there is a little birdie in my ear that is chirping "he's going to leave you again and this time its going to be forever"......... FUCK ME!

the new me.....hahaha

i chopped off all of my hair and I'm sporting some sort of fade..hahaha yeah i like it it's different.. the kids at the school i teach question my style or my sort of expression through self mutilation..hahahaha bad choice of word but everything about me is art to my plugs to my tats to my hair.. i scream art but never acceptance because i already have that from myself.. i feel great things for 2009. I want to graduate this year find a better job and hopefully move out so i can move on with my life... so here's to 2009 and to my hair hahahahahahaha.....

so it's 4 in the morning...

Just got the most random ass phone call awhile ago from this radical punk kid Evan i used to go to nassau with... I had a huge crush on him and its surprising he still has my number...HOT<3...hahahha

This weekend was pretty sweet .... i can't believe i waited to now to try to get my shit together...i go back to teaching tomorrow, well today and i need to get my lesson plans in order to start my new year right...... i have to remember that i'm trying to be a better person...lol that was one of my new year resolutions so i have 360 days to better myself before the next new year arrives....lol

well Andrew and Stacy are passed out on my couches...hahaha step brothers gets funnier every time you watch.. plus Gordon's show...lol.. speaking of Gordon i ran into Damon in the city after having dinner with Andrew and Lookman.. I've missed Damon he is a good kid.. to bad we had that Hipster party to attend or we would have had to hit some bars up in Brooklyn with Damon...haha but it was good seeing him....lol

ahhh i miss my niece and nephew, trice, Ish and Tasha... it felt good having a lot of people in this lonely house like before..so sad ..... well it will be back to its normal lonely self once Lookman leaves for school...sigh


ahhh so these are the festivities i've been getting into and that HIPSTER party that Jess threw was a success... GREAT JOB JESSE<3!..lmfao

this is the new year.....

2008 went out in a blast got to chill with Lookman, my home slice Tranette and her boo boo and her weird friend Jeremy..lol... It was horrible when they left me with Jeremy but oooo so entertaining because of the fact he got off on torturing me and i got off allowing him too....Sorry Tranette i know you might read this..hahaha...

well our new years party was a success and everyone who said they were coming out came out.. got extremely smoked out with Trice, Justin, Stacy and corrupted Lookman just once..lol.. it was all in good fun.. Aunt Doris had a wonderful night which showed itself when she threw up on Lookman's carpet.. hahahahahahaha my dad was the worst he was so drunk he was dancing and screaming out the door "HAPPY NEW YEAR".. hahaha Stacy was a little scared of him but i found it hilarious.. awwww 2009 came in with a bang and a hell of a great time.. i'm so appreciative of my family and my true friends and glad to get rid of wasteful people in my life.. so here's to you 2009!!!..