This new year...

It's going to be different.
I'm going to try to do this right....

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so okay...

i have one more paper to write and then i am home free but i need to start it since it is due on friday the 21st.... which poems to write about.. i have no clue.... but i will in a few.. oooo i just ryhmed...lmao

i realized what was missing from my life it's not Daniel it's weed my first love... i need to get some and regain my sanity pronto....blah

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Frances de la Tour

i would love to study English and French History at Cambridge or even Oxford but yet i can't help to keep my grades up or even keep myself motivated enough to bring myself to class... i'm doomed to fail in my own self righteousness unfortunately.... if i had a reason a goal which i have so many, to deal with my life and work to achieve my hopes and further my education..... I don't know... professor wan and i know i blame her for everything but she does have justible cause in my discision on how much i do not like queens college. I try to give myself hope and say maybe when i move up in the program i might be better off, well i hope, until then i guess i have to remember why i am doing this.....

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waffles<3!...yum

today is the first time i had waffles after becoming a vegan.. yum vegan waffles.. went to trader joes yesterday and i got some sweet stuff..i even got Tofurkey.. i can't wait to try it.. i think i'll save it for christmas.. if i could stick to my diet then i'll be fine....

so today was day 2 of my jogging and i'm feeling good about this... i haven't smoked a cig in 3 days and i feel if i could stop smoking weed until i find a new job that would be even more OWOSOME (in the words of New York)...lmao.. i could even apply at BEST BUY.. OOOOOOO...lmao

well i've been giving this some thought and i think Lugie and I are waaaay too close and in this result Lugie believes he could talk down or anyway to me... I don't disrespect you and treat you like a child so why must you talk so shitty towards me... dont compare me with the respect level of daddie because i do sacrifice a lot just to make you happy and all you do is BITCH and moan... so i think this Anthony Green show will be the last event i'll be attending with him.. i have to start doing my own thing.....

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pretty pissed..

i stayed up for nothing.....blah

while you were sleeping......

this time i know it's forever and this hurts so much... like why are you leaving me now after all we have been through.... you not picking up your phone and sending me to your voicemail without any answer..... did you find someone else did you wake up and say you had enough... please don't leave..please not now... wait until tomorrow.......

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i'm here to do some trees and smoke some blow....

i pretty much pulled an all nighter with Kristina.. watching Gordon's home made videos and laughing about the stupid things in our lives.. hahaha

yeah so its thanxgiving and i have nothing planned.. i was supposed to go dancing tonight but thats not going to happen since Nissa is heading to PA today.. soooooo what to do...

i might just play my guitar.. i think that's a plan.... ahhhhhh!

I HAVE NO LIFE....blah

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